the Epistermis.

WSB. last words.

its always such a chore having to dig this up each time i need it, so here it is.

william seward burroughs, last entry journal, just a few days before he quietly passed away in his sleep at the age of 83, on methadone maintenance.

[i]"There is no final enough of wisdom, experience- any fucking thing. No Holy Grail, No Final Satori, no solution. Just conflict.
Only thing that can resolve conflict is love, like I felt for Fletch and Ruski, Spooner, and Calico. Pure love. What I feel for my cats past and present. Most natural painkiller there is."[/i]

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Lophophora williamsii, the peyote cactus.

the heffter review of psychedelic research vol.2, 2001

a couple of interesting articles, especially "Visions of the Night: Western Medicine Meets Peyote".
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* "The Heffter Research Institute promotes research of the highest scientific quality with psychedelic substances in order to contribute to a greater understanding of the mind, leading to the improvement of the human condition, and the alleviation of suffering."

visionary cactus guide

a cacti growing blog

botany of peyote

"Peyote is one of the slowest growing plants in existence, taking 13 years or more
to mature. Older cacti are generally much higher in alkaloids than young plants.
The very oldest plants are worshiped by the Indians as "Father or Grandfather
Peyote". They are often kept as amulets or placed on a crescent alter to be
revered as a sacred object. A baseball sized Cactus can be well over 30 years
old.
...
There have been over sixty alkaloids discovered in this plant which has been
described as a " little green chemical factory ". This Cactus is known to contain
56 nitrogen containing compounds derived from a tyrosine base, as well as 20
tyramine-like alkaloids. Mescaline content usually ranges from about 3 - 6%, by
dry weight, averaging around 4%, but is highly variable. Most of the alkaloids
present can be classified as B-phenethylamines like mescaline or
tetrahydroisoquinolines like hordenine. These chemicals differ in structure from
LSD in that they don't have a complete indole ring. Mescaline content of fresh,
undried cactus is reported at 0.4 %.
...
Furthermore, our more “enlightened” culture
naturally assumes that the effects of peyote on a Red
Indian will be more or less the same as on a White
Suburbanite, because our minds run with Pavlovian
predictability down the well-worn rut of
pharmacological reductionism.
...
There are three Ameuropeans, two Americans and
a Norwegian, who each independently discovered
peyote and became interested enough in the plant to
sample it themselves. Chronologically, the first was a
Texas physician, John Raleigh Briggs (1851-1907),
who experimented with peyote in 1886. The second
was Carl Lumholtz (1851-1922), a Norwegian with a
passion for exploration who was the first white man to
live alone with the Australian aborigines, as well as
the Tarahumara and Huichol of northwest Mexico,
where in 1892 he first became aquainted with and
sampled híkuli, as these natives call peyote. The third
was James Mooney, an Irish-American with a lifelong
passionate interest in and sympathy for Indian history
and culture, whose field trips as an ethnologist working
for the Smithsonian allowed him in 1891 to be the first
non-Indian to attend a peyote religious ceremony and
report on it."

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lonely hangover dawns. catatonic still-lifes. flames of everyday. etc.

"Saying is inventing. Wrong, very rightly wrong. You invent nothing, you think you are inventing, you think you are escaping, and all you do is stammer out your lesson, the remnants of a pensum one day got by heart and long forgotten, life without tears, as it is wept." –Molloy, Part I

"...you would do better, at least no worse, to obliterate texts than to blacken margins, to fill in the holes of words till all is black and flat and the whole ghastly business looks like what it is, senseless, speechless, issueless misery." - Molloy, Part I

sincerity of intention, subtlety of vanity, instinct for occupation.. thought - silent thought, spoken thought, written thought. express in words, or seek expression in words being written..?
i like a simple hard-cover notebook, and the strokes and twists of pen on paper.
in schizophrenic art, the white sheet and the pencil are means for re-building a world of necessity, a faculty for experiencing.

["the parable of the blind leading the blind" by pieter bruegel.]

if one lives in an un-natural world, in an enviroment of things constructed, and one adapts to man-made laws, and one is wired in the fabric of culture, and one is chained to the enterprise of civilization, one must never stop trying to regain the original ability to see.

"I must create a system, or be enslav'd by another man's." - William Blake

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