>That was never a goal for me.

I think you are lying to yourself. It was. You even had this hyper-capitalist phase, and with corresponding values and the narrative in your posts and comments, obviously entirely aligned with the vision of a heroic highly successful sole proprietor, who is only hindered by the evil Russians / Ukrainians, the lack of chicken account. I remember what you had been saying back then. Of course autistic bit twiddling is a factor too, which now became much more central.

I think even now, in the back of your mind your have some kind of hope to blow up somehow, but only the way you want to do it, naturally, without too much exertion focus/effort wise.

>I will just go shoplifting

No computers in prison. Would be too irrational even for you.