Decadent Singularity

>But in interaction with others you were typically anti-social and violent.
Unfortunately I was not strong enough to bully anyone, and was bullied myself. If I had the power, I would have surely took away other kids money and bought myself the Lego set I wanted. That is a no brainer decision.

If you're strong, you take directly. If you're weak, you blackmail. Ability to take by might or blackmail is what people call "power." That is a form of Conditionalism: if you work towards it (believe in Jesus), you will get money and that Lego set, but if you don"t, you will become cannon fodder for Putin and Zelensky, who just love compliant idiots.

Of course some naive people insist there is a 3rd way, like barter, beside leveraging power, but in reality you need a product to barter, and to procure the product you need power, unless you yourself is the product, used as a pawn on the front lines (be it LGBT-vs-Israel or Russia-vs-Ukrainian). But I don't consider that a viable way.

>you have an anti-social personality disorder, and due to having a caring mother developed an unmanly manipulative personality exhibiting outward vulnerability (at least in interactions with your mother during your childhood). "I'll harm myself or else" and so on.

A truly caring mother would have accepted her child for what it is, without the need for manipulation on the child's part. That is what we call healthy parenting. But my mother is a proud idiot, who only trained the child to manipulate her, because the child is just smarter and doesn't take the bullshit for granted. As Americans say: she fucked around and found out.

TL;DR: good mother's role is to empower her child, not to make it adhere to some dumb traditions of her obsolete nation.

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