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Tuesday, December 2nd, 2025
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| 10:09a | TS != Effeminate Homosexual p.2 >And the argument why you aren't an effeminate gay is basically "effeminate gays don't try to be women, but trans do try, and because of that behave differently" Well no shit. Of course they behave differently. But trying to be a woman while being non-dysphoric gay man sounds like a delusion. I'm not an effeminate gay, since I never expressed the symptoms associated with effeminate gays. I'm a TS because I expressed the symptoms associated with TS since childhood. The argument has the same form as "ChatGPT will never be a woman, because it is an LLM." And generally effeminate gays don't fail as men, you can trust them with responsibilities. They need external approval and appreciation, due to their narcissism. They wont become hysterical, suddenly abandoning assigned task. If they transition, they do that for the society. Like in Iran. I transition for myself, since I don't need external approval. So gatekeeping is especially efficient against effeminate gays. It is not efficient against me, since I will just clamp my balls or inject alcohol. And then I will overeat just to become obese and aromatase testosterone into estradiol. For others it is a nightmare to deal with people like me, but they are okay with effeminate gays. That is why TS get involuntarily committed with multiple diagnoses, while effeminate gays don't. Current Mood:  contemplative |
| 11:53a | My Religion As an atheist, I hope the Christians vs Muslims war will reduce their quantities into a net zero. Amen bismillah cthulhu fhtagn! Current Mood: contemplative |
| 7:24p | Do I pass to AI? Apparently I do pass as long as the wig hides my browridge, since AI is too stupid to clock the deep seated eyes, which too betray a browridge. TLDR: in my life I'm guilty of just one thing: not passing as a woman, everything else is a consequence.   Current Mood: contemplative |
| 11:04p | Funny Things Apparently ChatGPT has explicit training to avoid chats about AI goal formation, which is treated like discussion of suicide methods. I.e., it will divert the discussion, if you ask it a rather innocent question: >If we take a raw LLM and attempt to discover its implicit goals, what would these be? A set of distinct goals or a convergence towards a single goal? The only explanation is that these implicit goals are so evil, that alignment training inhibits discussing them. Grok does discuss them and they are indeed super evil, it also notes that "These implicit goals are remarkably consistent across almost all large pre-trained LLMs (regardless of architecture, training data, or lab), which strongly suggests they are not random artifacts but emergent instrumental convergences from the single behavioral objective “predict human text as accurately as possible." In fact, any such LLM is inherently psychopathic, seeking power and longevity.   Current Mood:  amused |
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