>I'm transsexual, not transgender.

In reality that is likely how you like to think about yourself. Lacking true dysphoria you are overcompensating, placating your insecurity about the crossdressing nature of your "transitioning" by pushing the "purity" of your transition to the max. Thinking "I'm no gay" makes you feel more compfortable, when in fact you are a transvestite bisexual.

The transgenderest of transgenders.