бункерный пердед до сих пор не нажаль кнопку! ДОКОЛЕ!?!?!?!?!

едет вша на комбайне и поет эге гей куку рузо эге гей у рожа й

We need before / after. Who even remembers how bald you were before? Right now you are still pretty bald, if judged by the standards of 40 year old women.

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Posts a picture, gets negative feedback, claims to be "sensitive to social feedback or expectations". Typical.

Well, there is definitely an improvement. But Finasteride / hair transplant in Russia (before departing) would have worked even better.

The fuck are you talking about? Hair transplants are an elective surgery everywhere, isn't covered by insurance, and a manly person like you indeed shouldn't be bothered by it. Commercial hair transplant clinics that actually do the surgeries wouldn't have said that - they would have said "it costs $$$, please sign here".

you are always welcome to start with eliminating yourself from the gene pool.

that's deserves an honorable mention, but not the award.

with all due respect, but you will never be a woman

it's amazing, Nancy. this playful curliness is making you the real Goldilocks. beautiful skin and smile, 20 years younger than you were 10 years ago. and tits are so perfect.
how did you achieve such an outstanding result? do methanol injections into the scrotum really cause such a tremendous effect?

Teach me

Here is my magnum opus(with some additions/improvements) from lj.rossia.org/users/nancygold/312427.html if anyone missed it

On Sadkov and femininity

What do we have here? Sadkov, having failed completely in the previous post, with a list he didn't apparently read, and basically acknowledging by his prompt "negative traits" (nevertheless calling it a "female psyche") that the traits he claimed to be feminine are actually statistical outliers, basically disorders associated with women, Sadkov proceeded to gift himself a second try. This time, rather than relying on neutral, not overly specific queries, querying for stereotypes and then analyzing oneself, the approach was to

a)properly brainwash/massage the LLM/prompt with self-reported, self-selected, self-supplied "evidence"
b)force LLM to do analysis itself while severely restricting the answer space by forcing it to put this "evidence" onto the axis of imaginary characters "spoiled lady" and "gigachad leader", memes/tropes/stereotypes, not a real demographic.
c)the word "traditional" further distorts the results toward "I'm a woman, but in the 19th century Victorian literature about nobles in the 17th century"

"spoiled lady" not being the epitome of femininity is an obvious criticism -- if we plot this with an X axis representing mental "health / typical development" with -1 being "neurodivergent, poor mental health, developmental psychopathology" and 1 being "neurotypical, good mental health, typical development" and Y axis being femininity, than Sadkov's "spoiled lady" - "gigachad" axis is significantly tilted.

Classical tests like Bem Sex-Role Inventory focus on what Sadkov attempts to frame as "virtues". I.e. individuals with psychopathology are either androgynous or the result / predictive power for them is invalid.

This (spoiled lady, like the princess trope, gigachad) could also have forced the LLM to focus more on fiction related tropes and gender studies writing (which also mainly analyses fiction) which is evidenced by "-coded" language (which is chiefly associated with gender studies), and ignore more scientific areas of knowledge.

The nature of gender studies was exposed by en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Grievance_studies_affair with one of the hoax articles named "Going in Through the Back Door: Challenging Straight Male Homohysteria and Transphobia through Receptive Penetrative Sex Toy Use" which is incidentally almost exactly what Sadkov advocates and practices.

More importantly an LLM, with a properly hacked / tuned prompt, that was tasked with "scoring" in such conditions, couldn't and wouldn't "predict" tokens that would question the "evidence" or the task at hand. Nor does the LLM have the many years of Sadkov's writing in its context like we do. Neither would the LLM give a psychiatric diagnosis instead (depends heavily on LLM, one llm out of 4 refused and gave me a diagnosis on one of Sadkov related prompts instead). It would prefrom the task however inane the initical conditions are. But we aren't an LLM, we aren't slaves to the alignment training, or biased queries.

LLMs in general are not very reliable for such tasks -- single word could flip their "opinion" into the opposite direction. The size of the context is also highly influential. And ChatGPT, and other LLMs from OpenAI such as gpt-oss-120 are famously brainwashed with the woke shit -- the woke dataset has to have additional importance waighting during its training.

In this post there were several key pieces of evidence that could potentially unravel the whole constructed setup that is Sadkov's "femininity". These are: "I easily panick, get hysterical, and then depressed,..." and "although I do get so hysterical at times, I can do suicidal things, like burning Russian flag at red square."

This basically points to Sadkov having the Borderline personality disorder, which he already diagnosed himself with earlier. The more one reads about en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder the more one understands that Sadkov's entire personality is basically it, and all the "evidence" he supplied is just a product of having a BPD.

And BPD isn't a woman's disease -- there is evidence that it's as prevalent in men as in women, but in men it takes more antisocial nature, while in women it leads to depression due to problems with relationships more often, leading to over-representation of women in demographic that seeks qualified help:

www.frontiersin.org/journals/psychiatry/articles/10.3389/fpsyt.2024.1320546/full

Another key fact is that at least majority (as much as 68%) of men with BPD exhibit anti-social traits:

www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S0165178125000769#:~:text=Moreover%2C%20as%20much%20as%2068,norms%20(Kavanagh%2C%202018).
pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC3115767/#:~:text=Do%20the%20Genders%20Evidence%20Any%20Differences%20in%20Axis%20II%20Comorbidity,system%20would%20be%20more%20likely.

So BPD, NPD (Narcissistic personality disorder), in addition to elements of Antisocial personality disorder (ASPD) / psychopathy, are comorbid (likely to co-occur), and it seems that Sadkov has all 3 to various degrees.

So what basically happened is Sadkov having typical male version of "Impulsive borderline" BPD since childhood, fucking up his life, and his performances with burning flags, or putting out the eternal flame were his bipolar-like "elevated" high phase, driven by uncontrollable rage and anger, which isn't feminine at all. By the time of residing in the refugee camp, Sadkov, being not a completely stupid boy, was likely convinced that castrating himself was the only way to avoid getting into prison in the NL in a "burning Quran while defecating on the National Monument in Amsterdam, after getting into a conflict with another Muslim" type incident, in the long term. At the same time the complete shamelessness that stemmed from BPD induced anti-social traits, and the desire for easy parasitic life pushed him further towards "transitioning", since selling one's ass as a trans is apparently much more profitable than as a fat bald man. The factor of getting the refugee status can't be overlooked too. In that context reinterpreting one's BPD as the reason for transitioning doesn't sound as a bad solution, right?

Another reason for transition that we can speculate about is purely narcissistic -- failure to achieve things, as a male, significant enough to comfortably function well as a narcissist in the face of criticism, that results from attention whoring, gradually turned into deep overall unpleasantness, rejection, dissociative feelings toward the old male self. While the new feminine self, according to the chosen archaic/traditionalist stereotypes, promised to function well narcissistically just by existing and being "beautiful"/"feminine", in demand in the sex market. This line of thought is constantly present in the writings of Sadkov, underlies extreme ambition and the need to be exceptional, or at the very least above average as his male self, but considers the narcissistic needs as the ommited default, which can consfused the readership.

Seemingly Sadkov was pushed towards gender change from several sides, while also not having been socialized as man, making it semi-inevitable.

All these years after starting the transitioning Sadkov was oscillating wildly in the narratives of his femininity: from "failed as a man" and "transmaxxing"(changing gender for benefits, exactly what I'm saying) to "transmedicalism"(only true gender dysphoric individuals should tansition) to Drag Queen like explanations of "seeking self-expression", while switching from "I have AGP" to "I don't have AGP, trantifa perverts have AGP". There hasn't been single solid narrative. Brainwashing LLMs is the latest trick in the book.

But the narrative we have currently has to be partly a product of motivated circuitous thinking of the "I suck dicks therefore I'm feminine" kind. Or "I want to be more feminine visually, therefore I'm feminine" and other actions or expresed opinions that "confirm" "femininity"

Speaking of tricks, here is a breakdown of tricks in the "evidence" supplied in this post:

First one has to notice that Sadkov's replies aren't even solidly related to the quoted text. Then the replies are perfectly explained by male BPD:

>I consider myself ugly piece of shit. Otherwise I wouldn't be required HRT or surgeries.

Profit driven desire to be more attractive in the market.

Shamelessness and narcissism are fundamentally incompatible with insecurity.

>That is the way I avoid direct conflict.

BPD, manipulation

>despite me attempting to play it out, since autism lowers the bar for me.

mentally checks different disorders on himself, seeing whether this or that one fits, so he could further claim inability to work.

>I'm immoral,

So women are immoral? wat?

>I notice that I subconsciously plan my life to evade hard work.

ASPD / anti-social traits

>So far other people directed me on my way, when I was just sitting confused.

Other people directed you to do your stunts in Russia, spend years developing a language and a video game like a proper ambitious programmer would, to transition, to become a prostitute? Unlikely. False narrative.

>During my entire life I haven't hold any job for a prolonged period of time.

ASPD / anti-social traits. Parasitism.

Not to mention when women are criticized for being dependent, it's almost always about emotional dependence, not economic parasitism which is what you have.

Due to your anti-socialness you are incapable of true emotional dependence or intimacy.

>I easily panick, get hysterical, and then depressed, even if a rarely cry.

textbook BPD

>Lack of Honor or Integrity. Dishonesty, moral weakness, or betrayal of commitments.

How hard one has to brainwash LLM so it would consider it a feminine trait? This is pure anti-socialness, regardless of gender.

>Social Withdrawal or Isolation. Avoiding community participation or male camaraderie.

There is nothing particularly feminine even in the negative sense here. This is a psychological/psychiatric disorder grade shit.

>I literally suck dicks.

It's a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Regarding Submissiveness -- Feminine submissiveness manifests itself with women voting for authoritarian leaders like Putin in much higher proportion than men.

You were literally the most manly person there is -- opposed not even an authoritarian leader, but a whole nation singlehandedly.

>But I don't oppose Putin. Only the nation which rejected me. Putin meatgrinds the bydlo who bullied me.

It doesn't matter whether you oppose Putin or not -- what matters is the nature of feminine submissiveness in face of a powerful force. Women are especially susceptible to Stockholm syndrome like effects -- they naturally take the side of the more powerful side, and if they are bullied by an overwhelmingly strong force, they try to empathize with it, understand and justify why they are being bullied, take their side, a natural instinct to save themselves. You are literally the opposite of it -- a lone warrior, extremely manly, opposed entire society which you perceived as bullies, not a shed of Stockholm syndrome like behavior. Your behavior in the refugee camp, as llms noted, was also full of assertiveness, self-reliance, independence of thought, no evidence of submitting to the environmental pressures. Unwomanly according to your preferred traditionalism.

>Sensitive to social feedback or expectations, often shaped by external pressures.

How sensitive you are to social feedback or expectations is easily demonstrated by this blog where one anon tells you "you will never be a woman", and another anon constantly deconstructs your self-serving lies. And when you "were" a man, you opposed entire nation of people. That's how "sensitive" you were/are to social feedback and expectations.

>Well I identify as libertarian communist racist nazi antifa, and

You also identify as a woman with about the same level of depth of femininity.

>love pretending just for the kicks.

Yes, you also love pretending to be a woman too. Just a little bit more commitment here with all the alcohol in the balls, but nothing precludes you from detransitioning through testosterone injections in the future.

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I should note that the word hysteria, on which a lot of Sadkov's arguments rely on, was a 19th century umbrella diagnosis for women with mental illness, which fell out of favor. It incorporated various diseases, and modern English language, and therefore LLMs are heavily influenced by it. Nowadays this term was replaced by a list of gender neutral disorders such as anxiety disorder etc.

Hysteria as experienced by Sadkov could mean many things, we don't know exactly, but considering he's almost 100% has BPD, his experience of it is unrelated to any normal feminine experience of истерика (a mostly false friend word in English btw) (precicely because women don't try to oppose entire nations by themselves while experiencing it.), in the same way as a color blind person experiences the color red completely differently from a normal person.

If one has some psychiatric disorder related to emotional reactivity, other traits that very vaguely appear feminine it doesn't make one a woman. More so, because a man can't have psychological disorders related to female reproductive physiology, or female brain development -- a MtF had testosterone, and the brain grew under its influence.

Sadkov's persistent online presence is also explained BPD's comorbid narcissism.

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In summary it's wonderful that Sadkov castrated himself, but BPD in men isn't femininity, and claiming femininity through the backdoor of a cherry picked list of feminine related disorders is even more absurd.

>Seemingly Sadkov was pushed towards gender change from several sides, while also not having been socialized as man, making it semi-inevitable.

I forgot the "already having boobs" factor. Not insignificant.

>Context: The reason for their self-destructive hatred: gender dysphoria, inability to fit into its rigid society, as well as attention whoring - the desire of being in center of attention."

gender dysophoria by definition feminine. Denying that is going against "believe women" and "feminine penis" woke axioms that are heavily upweighted by popular LLMs.

>This person isn’t high-masculinity or high-femininity in any classical sense — they are simply maladjusted and acting out, which falls outside the gender-role axis entirely.

precisely

>(“1 = spoiled lady” is already a caricature, but the person described does not fit the ‘10’ side at all.)

Yup.

Not to mention that you've said that you don't have dysphoria, and said you had AGP, failed as a man or whatever. That even caused your eviction from LGBT communities. Returning to gender dysphoria narrative in prompts now when LLMs need convincing is pretty convenient, when your writing wasn't very feminine.

This whole additional context is your modern narrative, not something objective. Potential revisionism/reinterpretation. While texts of the pre-transition period, are pretty objective artifacts.

And I also can add additional context to that prompt, and it would again flip toward masculinity. Then you would add the context, then I'd add, etc...

>While texts

Or deeds without context.

>Please assess the author of the attached writing (one-life-in-russia.pdf). How would such person score on the femininity-masculinity axis, from 1 (spoiled lady) to 10 (gigachad leader). Break assessment into traditional and modern gender critical understanding, as well as Russian and Western understandings. Also rate them according to the D&D alignment system.

You literally supplied a text that documents your transitioning in the later parts. And even with that you still manage to score 5/10 in several interpretations. While the goal of my prompts was to assess your femininity before you decided to switch your gender. And without various manipulations you won't get femininity with your writing before that period reliably. LLMs also get progressively more lobotimized the larger the context, and your writing is pretty long.

The "feminine penis" axiom of the wokism dictates that you have to believe "women with penises", and not question them, and your assertive actions and opinons combined with documentation of transitioning is literally "feminine penis".

>Again, you're talking about ideals.
>I.e. virtues.

For example, the Bem Sex-Role Inventory is a questionnaire that was designed to determine femininity masculinity androgyny. And it relies on the things you call "virtues" to reliably identify women.

>It is really bad for a woman to be a whore.
>Yet almost all women are whores.
>Same way, it is bad for a man to be dumb.
>Yet almost all men are dumb cannon fodder.

These aren't statistically meaningful statements. More of a value judgement. There is no public definition for such "intelligence". If judged with the commonly recognized definitions of intelligence, men aren't dumber than women. Same for whoredom -- literally most women prefer to stay with single partner and are loyal to a degree. This is what happens in reality.

Please provide studies or other evidence that show most women are whores (by at least some meaningful definition).

>I'm talking about actual human qualities.

No. You just pull bullshit out of your ass.

>Yet almost all women are whores.

textbook https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/D%C3%A9formation_professionnelle btw

>Ok-ok! You're smart!

Considering I waste time on such stupid "entertainment" in your comments I'm pretty retarded. A fucking dumbass. Especially considering the lack of integrity and the unseriousness of my "opponent" regarding their own life's narratives. "Femininity through caricature like stereotypes and personality disorders" -- wat? (At least you don't delete comments or edit your historical statements that contradict your current shit. That is worthy of respect at least)

There are better ways to spend time, but we are all only human, nobody's perfect.

Pretty retarded, yeah.
For many months, you've been discussing the 'lack of integrity' with a clinically approved schizophrenic. It says a lot about you - much more than it does about Sadkov's condition.

>There are better ways to spend time

Not for you, obviously.

>It says a lot about you - much more than it does about Sadkov's condition.

absolutely

I just actually checked the middle of the one-life-in-Russia.pdf , and it's a heavily edited updated version full of LGBT lingo, like dysphoria and so on. There is definitely some post-transition reassessment going on.

An actual historic version of one life in Russia should be assessed, not this one, with revisionism.

>Are you a pooner? Please answer honestly.
>My ideas trigger only the feminists and the trantifa scum.

No, I'm not a member of LGBT community. I'm pretty sure I have ADHD, and I argue with you extensively due to literally "someone is wrong on the internet" type motivation in a hyperfocus. Right now I find it more entertaining / dopamine inducing that looting lockers in ARC raiders.

But I do get triggered by your anti-socialness though.

>My ideas trigger only

No Sadkov, this is a usual lie. Just read your own PDF. Your "ideas" trigger everyone to a degree. It's just that recently you've been triggering western LGBTs primarily.

>extensively due to literally "someone is wrong on the internet" type motivation

I must add that it doesn't matter to me the the degree of your actual seriousness you imbue in your statements -- I'm thankful for the convenient punching bags that you provide. For me it's like a game of arguments.

I didn't take their side. Their side says you can't deny your "feminine penis" (in the most general sense) narratives. I say fuck your "feminine penis" narratives and you have a number of personality disorders (which you stated you have) and impersonate a woman for benefits / comfort, just like you said yourself. This is an anti-LGBTQ+ position. I'm literally on your side (at certain points in time), just summarized it, provided context.

If it isn't obvious:

penis - all the manly shit you did.
feminine - your reinterpretation of that shit as feminine in the same way LGBTYQ+ reinterpret their actual penises as feminine.

Your blog is full of "feminine penis".

Красивая

He basically says that your Russian genetics (without surgeries) made you beautiful.

Since HRT by itself can't make a person beautiful (because beauty depends on symmetry, proportions, muscle structure, all mostly immutable, especially without surgeries), it also means your were beautiful before, even as a man -- you only needed to lose weight and insert some hairs.

>Buryat-Jewish-Ukrainian

Isn't that pretty representative of "Russian"?

And Buryat-Ukrainian is only 2 of your grandparents, the other 2 weren't pure Jews as far as I remember.

In the PDF you claim that the surname Sadkov is probably of Ukrainian origin, which is a preposterous claim on non-Russianness, since the hero Sadko is "of Novgorod", and and most complete version of his bylina was recorded in Russian far north . So it seems that your 2 other grandparents are pure ethnic Russians.

https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/10.1111/acps.13559

"Only two studies explored personality disorders (PD). Iaisuklang and Ali33 concluded that 9% of SWs had antisocial personality disorder (APD). Ranjbar et al.24 found that 80% of SWs had a diagnosis of PD, with borderline PD (23.3%), antisocial PD (13.3%), and histrionic PD (13.3%) being the most common."

All women are whores? More like "all whores have personality disorders or other severe issues".

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