Retreat from this it may be not too late. It is a lot harder to survive as a poor old ugly tranny than as a poor old ugly man. You had a nice beard though. If youre a homosexual you can live life of a homosexual as a man. You may experience tenfold troubles in your new appearance. Not even homosexuals want to interact with an ugly tranny. You have face structure of a man and skin of a 40yo man and everyone will instantly recognize you as an old pervert and give you a hard time. Since you are a bum without documents, house, relatives or money you will not be able to live a good life as an ugly tranny with a wig. And you'll experience brain hormonal effects from these tablets that may turn you into a russian babushka. Your only last resort may be to kill yourself and reincarnate as a russian boi.