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rejected

News from public school. Fuck it.
Just talked to the principle. Yosef won't be admitted to kindergarten this year. He is 3 days off the cut-off date. Three days, like that - T-H-R-E-E.
For this reason he was not admitted by default. I asked for age waiver for early kindergarten entrance. So they invited him for screening (he was screened last Friday).
The reasons why he should be admitted the way I explained it in the application were such:
he is bilingual, attending Special Ed program because of speech delay, he is interested in learning and responds well to stimulating environment.
He is attending Special Ed town program for his speech, gross and fine motor skills development. Public school screening confirmed that he deviates from the standard in all these areas. No news here, I put this info right on the application form. He is a boy, left-handed and bilingual. I have no guarantee I'll find a job by September. So we can't make a commitment to any of pre-school programs (the one that looked best requests a school-year commitment like NOW and a payment for the whole year or "two convenient payments", other require a commitment now and smth like 2 months payment).
He is interested in writing. His favorite computer game is Mavis Beacon Teaches Typing. He likes books. He follows instructions. He is friendly with kids and adults.
I went on and on like this with the principal.
She said that she hates to make these calls but she has to because they very rarely waive the age requirement - they did it once for someone relocating to France 'cause in France age requirements are different. She is not even sure why these screens are encouraged. They just don't do it. There is no compelling reason why they should take him. And besides he is below the standard as seen in the screen test results.

And she came to this self-esteem issue - it may happen he'll have to repeat kindergarten program and it will be very negative for his self-esteem.
I went on with this talk about the gap growing between him and his peers because we won't have the money to pay for pre-school program. He will read in Russian and fall behind in his English - and that will create more problems down the line. And the gap in his speech development will grow without proper environment. And probably he will have to repeat kindergarten program then - a year later - and THAT will be REALLY BAD for his self-esteem.

I don't think though I impressed her enough with Yosef's problems (oh, here it goes again - A BOY, BILINGUAL, LEFT-HANDED, IN SPECIAL ED PROGRAM BECAUSE OF HIS SPEECH DELAY) and my financial disability. My financial problems are not her concern by any means (Public schools get the funding from the city taxes but it's not their function to provide financial relieve to stupid people) but she kind of listened. She promised to talk to people from the center, but I shouldn't expect to get application form in the mail.

Fuck it! Fuck the day on Monday, August 31 year 1998 when I was conducting this client check-point (Mexican macho guys strip-club regulars from Houston had to stomach not just a woman leading a project but a pregnant woman completing it) - instead I should've gone to the hospital and asked to induce me. Three fucking days. Fuck this stupid cut-off date. Fuck myself with my stupid ways in life.