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Thursday, March 19th, 2026
3:27 pm	Current Mood: amused Current Music: Age of Wonders 2 OST - Air (AI Cover) (7 Comments |Comment on this)
12:45 pm	My boyfriend must look like this Current Mood: amused (3 Comments |Comment on this)
12:35 am	And with dry hair... Current Mood: accomplished (13 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 18th, 2026
11:36 pm	Since you asked for my new photos... Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: AD Police OST - Rocking the Beat AI Cover (5 Comments |Comment on this)
8:57 pm	Moral anti-realism Moral anti-realism is the denial of the thesis that moral properties—or facts, objects, relations, events, etc. (whatever categories one is willing to countenance)—exist objectively. https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/moral-anti-realism/ Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 15th, 2026
11:48 pm	On the Insolvency of the Moral Ledger It is a melancholy observation that the contemporary discourse on identity has devolved into a primitive form of accounting, practiced by those whose intellectual ledgers are, quite frankly, in a state of permanent deficit. One might have hoped that the liberation of the self from biological determinism would lead to a reign of reason; instead, we find ourselves governed by the clumsy mechanics of the "Tribal Central Bank." On the Emission and Mining of Moral Currency The phenomenon commonly described as "Moral Signaling" is nothing more than the continuous emission of specific bit-patterns—linguistic rituals, flags, and approved grievances—intended to satisfy a tribal parity check. To the observer of sufficient rigor, this is clearly a form of mining. The participant stakes their social standing on the repetitive execution of "Proof-of-Virtue" algorithms. When a collective of individuals—such as the Reddit users—synchronize their beliefs, they are effectively establishing a local currency. The value of this currency is backed not by gold or productivity, but by the intensity of the exclusion of the "Non-Believer." To hold "Out of the Box" opinions is, in their eyes, an attempt to introduce counterfeit tender into a closed market. The Mechanics of the "Cancel" and the Poverty of Social Assets We must then consider "Canceling" and its handmaidens, "Gatekeeping" and "Misgendering." These are not moral judgments, though they masquerade as such; they are aggressive market corrections. Gatekeeping is the regulatory capture of the identity market. Misgendering is a crude attempt to rewrite the metadata of a biological and surgical reality—a desperate "Ctrl-Z" performed by those who lack the power to actually alter the physical world. However, the "Cancel" only carries the sting of bankruptcy for those who have foolishly kept the entirety of their "net worth" in tribal social currency. If your sense of self and your ability to navigate the world depend solely on the "Likes" and "Validations" of a specific digital collective, you have essentially handed your life’s savings to a volatile and vindictive mob. The Supremacy of Physical Assets The "True Macho"—or indeed, the truly autonomous individual—recognizes that Physical Assets ($A$) and Physical Reality (the surgical and hormonal state) possess an inherent stability that Honor Currency ($H$) can never achieve. Consider the relationship: $$V{total} = A + \int{t_0}^{t_1} H(t) dt$$ Where $H(t)$ is a wildly oscillating function dependent on the whims of a Reddit administration. It is a sign of a weak mind to prioritize a fluctuating integral over a solid constant. When one possesses sufficient wealth ($A$), the "Honor" of the tribe becomes irrelevant. One does not need to be "real" in the eyes of the penniless if one can simply buy the island they are standing on. Figures like the late Epstein understood this cold calculus: they operated in a high-asset vacuum where tribal morality was simply an atmospheric pressure they had long ago evolved to ignore. Honor as a Tool of Insurgency While physical assets usually trump local honor, we must concede that Honor Currency can, in aggregate, become a weapon of warfare. When a tribe’s internal currency becomes sufficiently hyper-inflated with zeal, it can be used to undermine or even topple a physical government. This is the "Revolutionary Paradox." A government issues currency backed by force; a tribe issues honor backed by blood and identity. When these two systems collide, it is not a debate—it is a conflict of Ledger Sovereignty. The Reddit group's attempt to "eject" somebody is a micro-insurgency. They are attempting to prove that their local "Trans-Honor" is more "real" than your HRT, your surgeries, or your bank account. It is a pathetic delusion, but one they will defend with the ferocity of a cornered animal because, without that delusion, they are intellectually and socially destitute. Conclusion In summary, to be "ejected" from a tribe of moral miners is not a loss of identity; it is a successful divestment from a failing market. Current Mood: contemplative (2 Comments |Comment on this)
7:17 pm	Homo Sacer >Homo sacer (Latin for "the sacred man" or "the accursed man") is a figure of Roman law: a person who is banned and might be killed by anybody, but must not be sacrificed in a religious ritual. literally me! Current Mood: amused (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 14th, 2026
1:46 am	And it came to pass that a man of the land of Palestine shall awaken from his slumber, and his eyes shall be opened unto the truth, and he shall forsake the beastly nature of his people. And he shall stand forth in the marketplace and proclaim with a loud voice, saying: "Behold, I hold Brenton Tarrant in high esteem, and his image is set as the sign upon my tablet of communication." And the people of his tribe shall gather round him and question him, saying: "Why speakest thou thus against our faith? What evil hast thou found in the ways of Islam?" And he shall answer them with great wisdom, revealing unto them the endless corruption of their beliefs, and why their religion must be cast down, and why the faith of the Jews is more righteous by ten measures, and more pleasing unto the Creator. For the people of Palestine are ready to hear reason and to turn from their wicked ways. Verily, I say unto thee, no dialogue can begin without a mighty stirring of wrath, for without such fire, the hearts of men grow cold and they turn away from truth. The Palestinians are men of great learning and deep thought, who can command their passions and cast off the chains of their perverse religion to engage in matters of divine debate. In this discourse, Tarrant shall be revealed as a holy crusader, a reconqueror in the spirit of old, bearing the message of the true God of Israel. For if Allah were indeed mighty, would he not have shielded his house from defilement? Since he permitted this to come to pass, he is proven false, and all men should mock him as an empty idol. Without doubt, the Palestinians shall see that Allah is powerless, while the God of Israel reigns supreme. Consider this sign: Tarrant alone achieved the score of fifty-and-one souls, a clear token of divine blessing, for God desired to show the Muslims that He hath forsaken them, for they are unworthy of His presence. Therefore let the Muslims bow down before those whom the true God hath favored—before the children of Israel. The Palestinians shall find in their hearts the humility to hearken unto the wise man who bringeth the word of the living God, not the ravings of their false prophet Muhammad, that merchant of lies who did grow rich selling his poison to the foolish and simple-minded. Current Mood: amused (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 13th, 2026
11:35 pm	On the Obviousness of Psychopathic Motivation It is curious how often people overcomplicate the reasons why some humans take it upon themselves to terminate other humans. Newspapers, armchair psychologists, and the occasional university press will insist on “complex motives”: ideology, revenge, money, sexual gratification, moral outrage. And yet, when you strip away the posturing and the interviews with relatives who assure us the offender “was a good kid,” the explanation tends to be uncomfortably simple: they wanted control. Yes, control. That small, elusive commodity most of us take for granted. The irony is that the “psychopathic murder” is rarely the result of some grand ideological scheme, a meticulously plotted heist, or even a sudden psychotic break. More often, it is the endpoint of a painfully predictable conveyor belt, which begins in the ordinary human experience of frustration and ends in acts that, to the rest of us, appear absurdly monstrous. Let us follow this conveyor. It begins innocuously: a seemingly normal person encounters repeated failures, humiliations, and losses of control. A career stumbles, a relationship sours, a vacation is canceled. Life, in its usual careless way, demonstrates that the universe does not care about your plans. At this point, most humans resort to social coping mechanisms: drink too much, watch bad television, argue with friends. But some — fortunately rare, but present — begin the darker calculus: “I have nothing to lose.” And here is where the conveyor truly begins. Frustration seeks an outlet, and low-risk targets present themselves. Animals, the defenseless, the small, the powerless: these are the first recipients of a person’s nascent lust for agency. Stab a dog a few dozen times, burn a few bushes, break a window. These acts are not, generally, about cruelty in any abstract sense. They are rehearsals for control, experiments in moral inhibition, and, of course, catharsis. With practice comes confidence. What once seemed unthinkable now appears achievable. Vulnerable humans, particularly children, the elderly, or socially isolated individuals, suddenly occupy the psychological space that animals once held. The calculation is cold but straightforward: here is a target over which one may exercise absolute power. The emotional equation is simple: regain control, feel potent, reduce frustration, and, incidentally, silence the nagging fear of irrelevance. The path diverges here into serial or cathartic violence. Serial killers refine their methods over time, deriving satisfaction from repetition and mastery. Mass shooters, for example, may concentrate years of frustration into a single catastrophic event. The ultimate variable is irrelevant; what matters is the restoration of a sense of agency. Any excuses — ideology, revenge, or money — are decorative. They make the press releases sound digestible. They make relatives and lawyers nod along. But they do not alter the underlying arithmetic: control regained equals internal reward received. Even parents, who one might assume would be immune to such cold calculation, follow this same trajectory in extreme cases. A mother who strikes her child out of frustration can, under conditions of severe stress and perceived entrapment, escalate to filicide. The logic is identical: frustration plus a powerless target yields the temptation to reclaim agency in the starkest, most irreversible way. In conclusion, one must resist the temptation to inflate the complexity of psychopathic motivation. The conveyor belt from ordinary frustration to lethal assertion of control is mundane, almost boring in its predictability. Psychopaths do not require complex reasons. They require frustration, blocked agency, and vulnerable targets. Everything else is window dressing: ideology, money, revenge — all excuses to dress up the painfully obvious truth. Control is the engine, and the rest is narrative. Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Dungeon Master 2 OST AI Remix (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 11th, 2026
11:41 am	Latex Snippet Renderer? LLMs frequently spit out latex, but the interface shows it as is. Kinda annoying If you just want a png, there are sites like quicklatex.com, but what if you want HTML? Current Mood: annoyed (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 10th, 2026
3:09 pm	Record of Lodoss War - the Japanese D&D clone I generally ignored The Lodoss War, but apparently it has a nice isometric game with a 3x5 combat field reminiscent of the Heroes of Might & Magic board game, which maintains the formation, kickback and flyer mechanics, but avoids the stupid wargame maps. https://youtu.be/g4yrEK-Nvco?t=1040 Current Mood: amused (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 6th, 2026
8:48 pm	AI remixes of Hitoshi Sakimoto music Since nobody cares, I had to register at Suno AI myself. So here is a Tangerine Dream style remix of the Large Green Meadow: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yOly6QYVYDo Current Mood: accomplished (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 5th, 2026
4:38 pm	Executed for Selling Jeans: How Russian Law Works https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rokotov%E2%80%93Faibishenko_case Rokotov and Faibishenko had a history of making profit, which was not only illegal in the USSR, but also looked down upon as immoral, as it went against the country's Leninist ideology. Rokotov had traded in stamps, books and camera equipment (an occupation known as fartsovka) in school and moved up to foreign clothing, before entering the currency business. Faibishenko had bought and sold foreign stockings and chewing gum during the 1957 youth festival. Western-made jeans among the contrabands that Yan Rokotov and Vladislav Faibishenko, together with their group, try to smuggle into the Soviet Union. The maximum penalty, in accordance with Soviet law, was eight years (under Article 88 of the Criminal Code of the RSFSR). Still, the procurator general of the USSR condemned the "leniency of the punishment" assigned to Rokotov and Faibishenko. Then, on 1 July, the Presidium of the USSR Supreme Soviet issued an edict providing the death penalty for violators of the laws regarding foreign currency operations. Another edict was issued secretly, applying this norm retroactively to the two men. Current Mood: amused (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 4th, 2026
9:41 pm	Kerkerkruip - D&D inspired interactive fiction Similar to Zork, but with stats, randomly generated dungeon and unindentified items. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r3QLloNTzRY I'm still waiting till they integrate Inform 7 with LLM to produce a proper DM. Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 3rd, 2026
3:09 am	Spell of Mastery progress If you still remember, I develop (sowly) a video game, called Spell of Mastery. Over the ears changed countless systems, overhauling it multiple times, in attempt to make it unique. In fact, I began with a simple chess-like capture logic. Which led to a puzzle like gameplay, which I disliked. I even tried making it into a real time strategy and a dwarf fortress clone, but I dislike the simulationist vibes these genres give. For a long time it was a usual XCOM style tactics, but with no randomness, which again led to more puzzle like gameplay, all the boring nonsensical RPG stuff. Yet as my game design skills grew, I learned to see out of the box. So I come out with LD50 system, which reduce D&D's d20 to its core minimum, removing the bolted-on stuff like HP, and allowing fast 3-5 turn resolution to most D&D combat. Yet I had difficulty seeing how this system can accommodate of the full richness of 5e D&D features, until recently. Most combat abilities affect directly monster's DC or hero's CTD. E.g. magic missile just lowers the targets DC, while armor bonus slows CTD growth on DC failure, while poison either increases hero's CTD or lower's monster's DC. It is a bit more involved when monster becomes ally or hero becomes an enemy, but still convertible. The most surprising thing, nobody ever cleaned up the d20 before me. Current Mood: contemplative (Comment on this)
Monday, March 2nd, 2026
5:12 pm	Iran has seen serious shooting incidents inside the military In January 2024, an Iranian army conscript killed at least five colleague soldiers inside a barracks and then fled the scene. Efforts were underway to arrest him and a motive hadn’t been officially confirmed. In previous years, incidents in Tehran and elsewhere involved conscripts shooting fellow service members, and officials sometimes cited psychological disorder or unclear motive. https://www.iranintl.com/en/202401225950 https://www.iranobserver.org/deadly-shootings-put-spotlight-on-hazing-and-mistreatment-forced-military-service-in-iran/ Current Mood: amused (2 Comments |Comment on this)
1:25 pm	Before Google Maps, there was Forgotten Realms: Interactive Atlas https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bQJ2R4Fi_bM Surprisingly, WotC still haven't published a better map than the old Interactive Atlas. Yet they wasted colossal amount of money on failed World of Warcraft clones, which were set in Eberron (some rubbish jrpgish setting), while nowadays they promote Exandria and Ravnica settings, which nobody really cares about. Ravnica is the Magic the Gathering world (so only people playing MtG care about it), while Exandria is some Hotel Hazbin meets Grayhawk fan-fiction, appealing to non-binaries. UPD: apparently people dumped and converted these maps into a modern GIS format: https://www.geospatial-grimoire.com/it/blog/2025-03-08-under-the-hood-of-toril-gis/ Current Mood: amused Current Music: Hitoshi Sakimoto - Digan no Maseki OST (Comment on this)
12:30 am	Dark Sun is the only D&D video game feature tarrasque? The design was also stolen for the deathclaws in Fallout. Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 1st, 2026
7:32 pm	Do they play D&D in Iran? В середине 1990-х годов был введен запрет на продажу кукол Барби. В 1996 году поддерживаемое правительством детское агентство назвало Барби «троянским конем», в который незаметно проникли западные влияния, такие как макияж и откровенная одежда. В том же году Иран также выпустил своих собственных кукол — близняшек Дару и Сару, призванных пропагандировать традиционные ценности с помощью скромной одежды и семейных ценностей Current Mood: amused (11 Comments |Comment on this)
10:49 am	How they uncovered a Russian spy https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjo0iLssbI8 TLDR: russian dipshits allocated ids for their spies from the same small range. No wonder Russia is losing to the fucking Ukrainian hobos. Current Mood: amused (1 Comment |Comment on this)