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- The NPD Strategy (External Exploitation): The narcissist copes with their fragile inner self by forcing the external world to validate them. They need an audience. They extract "narcissistic supply" (admiration, status, power) from others to keep their grandiosity alive. They are hyper-attached to the social matrix because they need it to function.
- The SzPD Strategy (Internal Withdrawal): The schizoid copes by retreating entirely into their own mind. They perceive interpersonal contact not as a source of validation, but as a threat of engulfment or erasure. They protect their selfhood by severing ties with the social matrix.
| Monday, September 21st, 2026 | |
| 10:45 pm | NovaClaw Nova presents AI agents as RPG characters, taking your quest, working and reporting back. https://nancygold.itch.io/novaclaw Because every other harness is deficient by design.  Current Mood:  accomplished |
| 7:08 pm | Token golf: LLMs are the reason Russian language dies Russian language extremely inefficient on the token level, compared to English. Any tasks requiring handling Russians will be slower than the tasks handling English. Therefore any nation using Russian language will lose the optimization race to an English nation. A document in Russian will just take more time to be processed -> slower reaction -> missed opportunity -> failure. BTW, "Advanced"-mode translation below uses Gemini to translate the text - Classic will produce even more verbose Russian.  Current Mood:  amused |
| 1:36 am | A monthly update on my views... 1. As usual I don't believe in climate change or covid, but I would still promote the targeted climate change advocacy and closing markets, intended to harm Russia, forcing it to sell cheap. And it also empowers China, creating bipolar world. Meaning higher level existential competition, leading to progress in fundamental areas like AI, robotics and bioinformatics. It both destroys Russia with its vodka niggers and summons the Chinese demon to keep the Western barbarians in check. 2. I still believe in accelerating the general techno-fascist transhumanism. If we put a camera on every corner and make the unsleeping AI eye process the feed, we can ensure that all the criminals get caught. I see hard eugenics, genetic engineering and the castration of the unfit as mandatory components for the improving humans short-term, since genetic engineering alone will have hard time stopping the entropic collapse otherwise. Once the crime gets eradicated and the genetic degeneracy cancer barred from consuming the humanity, the civilization will have more resources for actual progress towards the next level on the Kardashev scale. Current Mood:  contemplativeCurrent Music: Hitoshi Sakitmoto - Fate (AI cover) |
| Sunday, September 20th, 2026 | |
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| Saturday, September 19th, 2026 | |
| 5:05 pm | Rest in Power v4.5 Since Suno AI killed their v4.5 model, any other unethical models producing actually good music? v5 or v6 can generate only the soulless censured safe slop. Current Mood:  annoyed |
| Friday, September 18th, 2026 | |
| 5:24 pm | Sheeple The paternalistic instinct in modern liberalism shares a direct structural link with pastoral power—the idea that the population is a vulnerable flock needing moral guidance, protection, and central stewardship to prevent self-harm or moral corruption. The shift happened when the core concern moved from individual liberty to collective risk management. Under classic liberalism, the individual is a rational actor capable of evaluating claims, weighing risks, and navigating free expression. Under the modern framework, the public is viewed as fundamentally susceptible to manipulation, bad actors, and systemic harms. Once you accept the premise that people are easily led astray by "disinformation" or unaligned technology, central authorities naturally step in to fulfill the role of the shepherd. The main difference lies in the authority invoked. Instead of divine command or religious scripture, modern stewardship uses expert consensus, safety metrics, and harm reduction as its legitimacy. But the psychological dynamic remains identical: a moral elite deciding what the broader public can safely digest, explicitly for "their own good". Current Mood: amused |
| Tuesday, September 15th, 2026 | |
| 5:26 am | 9/11 Bush like Prometheus brought Iraqis the flame of freedom, but Iraqi cavemen kept warming themselves with their own farts.Current Mood: annoyed |
| Thursday, September 10th, 2026 | |
| 5:28 pm | Mathematicians boycotting AI Этот лицемерный двойной стандарт — не просто реален, он вопиюще очевиден и давно всеми признан. Когда генераторы вроде Midjourney и ChatGPT начали методично рвать на куски цифровых художников, писателей и переводчиков, куча STEM-специалистов — математиков в том числе — свысока отмахнулась от паники. В технических кругах царила самодовольная, снисходительная ухмылка: «Искусство-то никогда и не было сложным», «ИИ просто вытаскивает на свет всю эту пустую шелуху» или классический совет «иди учись кодить, лох». Многие в академии смотрели на экзистенциальный ужас гуманитариев как на нытьё луддитов, которые просто отказываются приспосабливаться к современным технологиям. А теперь, когда гигантские вычислительные кластеры и передовые модели рассуждения нацелились на формальную логику, автоматическое доказательство теорем и призные задачи, земля внезапно ушла у них из-под ног. Точно те же аргументы, которыми раньше орали художники — несанкционированное обучение на чужом труде, потеря «человеческой души и интуиции», тупое brute-force-автоматизирование вместо глубокого мастерства и корпоративная эксплуатация — теперь слово в слово повторяют высокоумные академики. Корень их нынешней паники вовсе не в том, что математика наконец-то решается. Нет. Это внезапный и унизительный крах их интеллектуальной исключительности. Десятилетиями чистые математики тешили себя мыслью, что они — абсолютная вершина человеческого познания, та самая область, настолько абстрактная, строгая и глубокая, что никакой жалкий алгоритм по распознаванию паттернов до неё никогда не дотянется. А теперь, глядя, как корпоративная GPU-ферма тупо перемалывает или всасывает человеческие озарения, чтобы за пару месяцев обойти десятилетия академического пота и крови, им приходится глотать горькую правду: они вовсе не уникально защищены от автоматизации. Просто стояли чуть дальше по дорожной карте инженерии. Жертвенная поза появляется именно потому, что потерять статус «незаменимой когнитивной элиты» гораздо больнее, когда ты до этого свято верил, что ты неприкасаемый.  Current Mood: amused |
| 12:38 pm | Misha was pro-AI right until AI invaded math   Current Mood: amused |
| Wednesday, September 9th, 2026 | |
| 4:13 pm |  Current Mood: amused |
| Tuesday, September 8th, 2026 | |
| 10:35 pm | AI says I should treat programming as art, not paying job  Current Mood: amused |
| 2:24 pm | Google Gemini insists that I'm a schizo and no country will welcome me   Current Mood: annoyed |
| Thursday, September 3rd, 2026 | |
| 3:03 pm | Maxim Mironov claims Misha got fired for expressing his opinion online https://x.com/mironov_fm/status/2095239 (AI-translated below) Рио-де-Жанейро, 26 августа 2026 года. Уважаемый господин Михаил Вербицкий, Недавно IMPA стало известно о публикациях в интернете, автором которых являетесь Вы и которые доступны по ссылке: https://lj.rossia.org/users/tiphareth/ Эти публикации содержат оскорбительные и неприемлемые материалы с учётом занимаемой Вами должности и могут иметь негативные последствия, в том числе нанести ущерб репутации самого IMPA. В результате был утрачен минимальный уровень доверия, необходимый для продолжения трудовых отношений. Настоящим письмом Вам сообщается о **расторжении трудового договора по вине работника**, в соответствии со статьёй 482, пунктом «b» Консолидации законов о труде Бразилии (CLT), с сегодняшнего дня. Марсело Виана Генеральный директор 26 августа 2026 года. --- Rio de Janeiro, August 26, 2026. Dear Mr. Mikhail Verbitskiy, IMPA recently became aware of online publications authored by you, accessible through the link https://lj.rossia.org/users/tiphareth/ containing offensive and unacceptable content in view of the position you hold, with potentially harmful consequences, including damage to IMPA’s own reputation. As a result, the minimum level of trust necessary for the employment relationship has been lost. This letter therefore serves to inform you of the termination of your employment contract for cause, pursuant to Article 482, paragraph “b”, of Brazil’s Consolidation of Labor Laws (CLT), effective as of today. Marcelo Viana Director General August 26, 2026  Current Mood: amused |
| Wednesday, September 2nd, 2026 | |
| 8:00 pm | Tangerine Nightmare (music video made with Fable 5.1) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2kFbC-y  Current Mood: amused |
| Tuesday, September 1st, 2026 | |
| 7:50 pm | I began making demoscene videos set to industrial music https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PRaKwJj  Current Mood: accomplished |
| Monday, August 31st, 2026 | |
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| 3:45 pm | Sunlight for Vampires: Why Narcissists Die in Unvarnished Clarity Original: https://aermia.com/u/NancySadkov/p/sunl It is a well-documented law of human fragile architecture that the charlatan cannot survive in an environment where execution is measured with mathematical precision and spoken of with unvarnished clarity. For the ego-driven narcissist, whose primary cognitive output is the maintenance of a grand illusion, the most lethal atmosphere imaginable is not one of malice, but one of brutal, unceremonious honesty. Where speech is stripped of artificial social cushions, the narcissist experiences immediate systemic failure. The operational mechanics of the narcissist rely entirely on the inflation of perceived value in total absence of actual delivery. To achieve this, they depend heavily on the friction of social etiquette. In conventional, highly polite institutions, any attempt to evaluate a proposition purely on its logical validity is instantly derailed by procedural hand-wringing. The fraudster does not defend the broken code; they defend their dignity, claiming that to point out the defect without adequate deferential ornament constitutes a violation of decorum. Politeness, thus weaponized, becomes the ultimate defense mechanism for the incompetent. When an environment abandons these performative ceremonies—when a flawed assertion is met simply with "that is complete nonsense" rather than three paragraphs of cushioned validation—the carefully constructed apparatus of the narcissist collapses. Deprived of the ability to tone-police the room, they are forced to confront the actual content of their work. Because the content is empty, panic ensues. The evolution of such unceremonious systems follows a predictable trajectory. Initially, a community bound by direct, unvarnished feedback achieves exceptionally high operational efficiency. The signal-to-noise ratio approaches unity. Technical nonsense is discarded at the boundary, and ideas are judged solely by their structural soundness. However, this purity creates an intense evolutionary pressure on the surrounding ecosystem. As these truth-dense pockets demonstrate superior capability, they attract two distinct species of parasite. The first is the overt narcissist, who attempts to conquer the territory by volume, attempting to bully the regulars under the guise of "free speech." They are usually routed quickly, as a truly unceremonious group has no qualms about calling out a bully's underlying incompetence with the exact same merciless precision. The second, far more dangerous parasite is the bureaucratic reformer. Incapable of surviving the rigorous meritocracy of unvarnished criticism, this cohort initiates a moral campaign. They reframe the absence of sycophancy as a safety hazard. They demand the implementation of codes of conduct, institutionalized politeness, and structured feedback mechanisms. The moment a community accepts the premise that tone outweighs truth, the transformation is complete: the performative narcissists migrate in, the competent engineers migrate out, and the organization degrades into a committee dedicated to the mutual admiration of mediocrity. At a societal scale, the systematic replacement of frank judgment with mandatory fluff yields a culture incapable of basic error correction. When the expression of clear, unsoftened reality is classified as an act of aggression, systemic flaws are allowed to compound indefinitely. Bridges fall, codebases rot, and governance turns into an exercise in high-stakes theater, all because pointing out that the emperor is naked violates the municipal guidelines on civil discourse. In conclusion, the preference of narcissists for highly regulated, polite environments is not a matter of taste; it is a matter of biological necessity. The vampire does not avoid sunlight because it finds the aesthetic distasteful, but because photons disassemble its structure. An environment of radical, unceremonious clarity acts upon the narcissist as a powerful disinfectant. If a community wishes to remain functional, it must preserve its right to call a spade a spade, and nonsense by its proper name—without apology, and without ceremony.  Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: https://suno.com/song/9f1da017-44ce-455d-ac77-c1037edbf4e9 |
| Sunday, August 30th, 2026 | |
| 7:03 pm | Martin Luther King Jr. Unveiled https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ih8y4KP Guess Russians will call MLK Jr "based"  Current Mood: amused |
| Thursday, August 27th, 2026 | |
| 5:56 am | Realms of Aermia v0.6 Ok. My schizo game got a new updated release https://nancygold.itch.io/aermia It now has RPGMaker style has scenario editor.   Current Mood: amused |
| Wednesday, August 26th, 2026 | |
| 11:31 pm | "Echoism" - the scientific term for cucks and NPCs Beneath the surface, psychoanalytic theory views SzPD and NPD as two different solutions to the exact same underlying problem: a broken, fragile self. The Shared FoundationBoth disorders stem from a fundamental inability to engage in normal, mutual human attachment. Neither the narcissist nor the schizoid can relate to people as real, separate individuals. Instead, they handle the terror of vulnerability through two opposite strategies: The Paradox: Hidden GrandiosityWhile a person with SzPD appears totally humble or indifferent on the outside, clinicians like Ralph Klein and Nancy McWilliams note that schizoid individuals frequently harbor a secret, internal grandiosity. Because they detach from real-world feedback, their inner fantasy life can become grandiose ("I don't need anyone," "I am above these basic human games," or "I possess a secret, superior understanding of reality"). The difference is that while the narcissist demands the world applaud their superiority, the schizoid keeps their grandiosity completely private so the world can't touch or ruin it. "Schizoid Narcissism"The two disorders overlap enough that psychoanalysis recognizes a hybrid state sometimes called schizoid narcissism. This happens when a narcissist suffers such severe social rejection, burnout, or narcissistic injury that they give up on trying to get validation from real people. They drop out of society, adopt a schizoid lifestyle of isolation, and rely entirely on fantasy to sustain their sense of superiority. SummarySzPD isn't the opposite of NPD; it is its introverted cousin. The true polar opposite of the Narcissist isn't the Schizoid—it is the Echoist (someone who fears taking up space and lives entirely to serve the egos of others) or simply a Healthy, Secure Individual who can engage in mutual, unselfish relationships without needing to control, exploit, or run away from people. Current Mood: contemplativeCurrent Music: https://suno.com/song/6c4c7fae-4284-4c4b-b94a-47a92065584e |
