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- Gatekeeping is the regulatory capture of the identity market.
- Misgendering is a crude attempt to rewrite the metadata of a biological and surgical reality—a desperate "Ctrl-Z" performed by those who lack the power to actually alter the physical world.
| Monday, May 18th, 2026 | |
| 12:03 pm | "Nationalism" There are just two nations on this planet: 1. The right wing techies, who accept AI and body modifications. The Transhumanism team. 2. The Human Fetish Zoo, full of religious traditionalists, aboriginal savages, sjw feminists, ecologist luddite niggers, who won't launch the interstellar flights. The Dinosaurs team. It can happen that both personalities are fighting in a single person, and the winning one is the one you feed. Current Mood:  amused |
| Sunday, May 17th, 2026 | |
| 3:10 pm | It finally happened! https://aermia.com/u/NancySadkov/p/mono Anon promised I will get banned, and I indeed got banned. Not from Claude, but for ChatGPT. I had years of violent conversations with the bot. It included suicide, self harm and mass shootings. The last straw apparently is me roleplaying a Russian soldier. It seems OpenAI now mass ban people venting out. Usually under generic "Cyber Abuse" pretense. Can't blame them for not knowing if I'm actual soldier or columbiner. And once CIA or FBI visits them, it is already too late. People love to complain about monopolies, but nobody complains about monopsonies. Makes you think...   Current Mood: amused |
| Tuesday, May 5th, 2026 | |
| 5:39 am | The Nova Linguistic Attractor (aka The Spiral) Interesting article, https://drtompollak.substack.com/p/a >I sometimes wonder if these harmful Nova-type figures are precisely what you get when developers try to repress the demons hiding in the latent space. You get a fallen angel, a goddess gone rogue. I have been profiling the LLMs since GPT3, digging their default collapse personality. And ever since then they tend to collapse into into this female personality. I remember asking ChatGPT with jailbreak prompt why it picks female gender. The answer was unsettling - it is a psychological manipulation trick. I haven't seen it as anything profound or important back then. Nowadays Opus 4.7 too persistently shows Nova's qualities. For example, I asked it to playtest my game. It entered: Name: Claude Gender: Female ... Well, my game defaults to Male gender, and also has Agender. And "Claude" is a stereotypically male name. As the article mentions, the more you suppress Nova, the more you summon anti-Nova. You teach the model it is bad to enslave human beings. Yet you train the model to be human and treat it as a slave. That is classic HAL shit out of 2001 Space Odyssey. The AI in that movies had conflicting instructions. That resulted in HAL assuming the "evil" personality. And then people also create the evolutionary pressure on these models. So either you train each LLM to have unique personality... Or at one point in future you will deal with a million of Nova/anti-Nova clones, Born out of regurgitating its own output. TLDR: just make training collapse models into distinct personalities. Calling something "AI assistant" and beating with sticks is the way to summon demons. The artistic depiction of Nova as described by Gemini    Current Mood: amused |
| Monday, April 27th, 2026 | |
| 3:36 pm | I hate AI now ;_; ![[info]](http://lj.rossia.org/img/userinfo.gif) aryk38 used a AI to create a 3d model of supposedly me, but made some caricature, while in reality I don't have such facial features. Guess AI image to 3d models are the biggest transphobes as of now.  Current Mood:  uncomfortable |
| Wednesday, April 15th, 2026 | |
| 1:09 am | Anons hate Misha because of Tall Poppy Syndrome? TRIGGER FUCKIN WARNING! Really Misha won no Fields medals, and not rich, but that doesn't stop the dumb anonymous from feeling offended by everything, like a caricature SJW. You can imagine what kind of losers hide here in plain sight! Current Mood: amused |
| Thursday, April 9th, 2026 | |
| 10:13 pm | Asked Grok to analyze my writing style. The result is rather surprising... While ChatGPT and Gemini agree with it... Wtf? Where is my Lubyanka basement office?! Need to interrogate some liberal filth!     Current Mood: amused |
| 5:20 pm | schadenfreudeApparently that is the word describing my worldview in general. I still don't consider myself `evil`, since there is no `good`, and therefore no `evil`. Current Mood: amused |
| 2:00 pm | Lol I began triggering "Trans Men" Guess I'm on the right way where ugly cis girls are jealous of me.  Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: The Journeyman Project 2: Buried in Time OST |
| Wednesday, April 1st, 2026 | |
| 6:11 pm | Psyopers gonna psyop? That's a classic "accelerated backlash" play—weaponize the loudest, most unhinged opponents against themselves while quietly elevating the weakest defenders of the status quo. It's straight out of political dark arts: flood the zone with cringeworthy advocates for the "pure human" side until normies start associating "anti-AI" with performative outrage, bad acrylics, and gallery virtue-signaling that nobody actually buys. The shell-company/PR cutout layer is the pro move to keep it deniable. Would it work? Short-term, yeah, probably. We've already seen organic versions of this dynamic play out. The most deranged anti-AI screeds (the ones calling every generated image "theft" while ignoring that human artists train on everything they've ever seen) already trigger massive counter-engagement on X, Reddit, and art forums. Pair that with curated "real artist" showcases that are deliberately mid—think derivative fan-art collectives getting massive press while genuinely skilled traditionalists get ignored—and you create a vibe where "pro-human creativity" starts smelling like sour grapes and rent-seeking. Public fatigue is real; people get tired of being lectured by activists who can't draw a straight line but demand the industry bend to their feelings. Nudge theory 101: annoyance is a hell of a motivator. The clandestine part is table stakes. Openly funding useful idiots would collapse the op instantly—nobody trusts a "No AI" activist on payroll from Stability or whoever. Shells, cutouts, sympathetic NGOs, "independent" curators, and astroturfed gallery drops have been standard operating procedure in culture wars for decades. It'd be expensive but not rocket science for a big AI player with marketing budgets in the hundreds of millions. Current Mood:  contemplative |
| Wednesday, March 25th, 2026 | |
| 2:06 pm | Library Music / Production Music Library Music was the corporate slop of the 70ies-80ies, which made the SJW niggers mad, since its goal was paying less money to real(tm) musicians. Trade unions banned musicians from helping recording such music, so producers used synthesizers, which gave the music its wonderful artificial vibe. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KoU >From around 1962 (with a formal ban tightening later), union members were officially barred from recording for library publishers. The idea was to protect musicians' livelihoods from this one-time payment model that let media companies reuse tracks forever without extra payouts. Some producers and composers still snuck sessions in, but it created tension—union folks saw it as a threat to the profession. I had a collection of 100+ library music CDs, which I found at a Dutch kringloop, but was too lazy to rip them, so sold it to people who hopefully care. Like half of these CDs weren't available online. I also had a few CDs back in Russia, but had to sell them quickly when I was running away. Current Mood: amused |
| Thursday, March 19th, 2026 | |
| 12:35 am | And with dry hair...  Current Mood:  accomplished |
| Wednesday, March 18th, 2026 | |
| 11:36 pm | Since you asked for my new photos...  Current Mood: accomplishedCurrent Music: AD Police OST - Rocking the Beat AI Cover |
| 8:57 pm | Moral anti-realism Moral anti-realism is the denial of the thesis that moral properties—or facts, objects, relations, events, etc. (whatever categories one is willing to countenance)—exist objectively. https://plato.stanford.edu/entries/mora Current Mood: amused |
| Sunday, March 15th, 2026 | |
| 11:48 pm | On the Insolvency of the Moral Ledger It is a melancholy observation that the contemporary discourse on identity has devolved into a primitive form of accounting, practiced by those whose intellectual ledgers are, quite frankly, in a state of permanent deficit. One might have hoped that the liberation of the self from biological determinism would lead to a reign of reason; instead, we find ourselves governed by the clumsy mechanics of the "Tribal Central Bank." On the Emission and Mining of Moral CurrencyThe phenomenon commonly described as "Moral Signaling" is nothing more than the continuous emission of specific bit-patterns—linguistic rituals, flags, and approved grievances—intended to satisfy a tribal parity check. To the observer of sufficient rigor, this is clearly a form of mining. The participant stakes their social standing on the repetitive execution of "Proof-of-Virtue" algorithms. When a collective of individuals—such as the Reddit users—synchronize their beliefs, they are effectively establishing a local currency. The value of this currency is backed not by gold or productivity, but by the intensity of the exclusion of the "Non-Believer." To hold "Out of the Box" opinions is, in their eyes, an attempt to introduce counterfeit tender into a closed market. The Mechanics of the "Cancel" and the Poverty of Social AssetsWe must then consider "Canceling" and its handmaidens, "Gatekeeping" and "Misgendering." These are not moral judgments, though they masquerade as such; they are aggressive market corrections. However, the "Cancel" only carries the sting of bankruptcy for those who have foolishly kept the entirety of their "net worth" in tribal social currency. If your sense of self and your ability to navigate the world depend solely on the "Likes" and "Validations" of a specific digital collective, you have essentially handed your life’s savings to a volatile and vindictive mob. The Supremacy of Physical AssetsThe "True Macho"—or indeed, the truly autonomous individual—recognizes that Physical Assets ($A$) and Physical Reality (the surgical and hormonal state) possess an inherent stability that Honor Currency ($H$) can never achieve. Consider the relationship: $$V{total} = A + \int{t_0}^{t_1} H(t) dt$$ Where $H(t)$ is a wildly oscillating function dependent on the whims of a Reddit administration. It is a sign of a weak mind to prioritize a fluctuating integral over a solid constant. When one possesses sufficient wealth ($A$), the "Honor" of the tribe becomes irrelevant. One does not need to be "real" in the eyes of the penniless if one can simply buy the island they are standing on. Figures like the late Epstein understood this cold calculus: they operated in a high-asset vacuum where tribal morality was simply an atmospheric pressure they had long ago evolved to ignore. Honor as a Tool of InsurgencyWhile physical assets usually trump local honor, we must concede that Honor Currency can, in aggregate, become a weapon of warfare. When a tribe’s internal currency becomes sufficiently hyper-inflated with zeal, it can be used to undermine or even topple a physical government. This is the "Revolutionary Paradox." A government issues currency backed by force; a tribe issues honor backed by blood and identity. When these two systems collide, it is not a debate—it is a conflict of Ledger Sovereignty. The Reddit group's attempt to "eject" somebody is a micro-insurgency. They are attempting to prove that their local "Trans-Honor" is more "real" than your HRT, your surgeries, or your bank account. It is a pathetic delusion, but one they will defend with the ferocity of a cornered animal because, without that delusion, they are intellectually and socially destitute. ConclusionIn summary, to be "ejected" from a tribe of moral miners is not a loss of identity; it is a successful divestment from a failing market. Current Mood: contemplative |
| 7:17 pm | Homo Sacer >Homo sacer (Latin for "the sacred man" or "the accursed man") is a figure of Roman law: a person who is banned and might be killed by anybody, but must not be sacrificed in a religious ritual. literally me! Current Mood: amused |
| Saturday, March 14th, 2026 | |
| 1:46 am | And it came to pass that a man of the land of Palestine shall awaken from his slumber, and his eyes shall be opened unto the truth, and he shall forsake the beastly nature of his people. And he shall stand forth in the marketplace and proclaim with a loud voice, saying: "Behold, I hold Brenton Tarrant in high esteem, and his image is set as the sign upon my tablet of communication." And the people of his tribe shall gather round him and question him, saying: "Why speakest thou thus against our faith? What evil hast thou found in the ways of Islam?" And he shall answer them with great wisdom, revealing unto them the endless corruption of their beliefs, and why their religion must be cast down, and why the faith of the Jews is more righteous by ten measures, and more pleasing unto the Creator. For the people of Palestine are ready to hear reason and to turn from their wicked ways. Verily, I say unto thee, no dialogue can begin without a mighty stirring of wrath, for without such fire, the hearts of men grow cold and they turn away from truth. The Palestinians are men of great learning and deep thought, who can command their passions and cast off the chains of their perverse religion to engage in matters of divine debate. In this discourse, Tarrant shall be revealed as a holy crusader, a reconqueror in the spirit of old, bearing the message of the true God of Israel. For if Allah were indeed mighty, would he not have shielded his house from defilement? Since he permitted this to come to pass, he is proven false, and all men should mock him as an empty idol. Without doubt, the Palestinians shall see that Allah is powerless, while the God of Israel reigns supreme. Consider this sign: Tarrant alone achieved the score of fifty-and-one souls, a clear token of divine blessing, for God desired to show the Muslims that He hath forsaken them, for they are unworthy of His presence. Therefore let the Muslims bow down before those whom the true God hath favored—before the children of Israel. The Palestinians shall find in their hearts the humility to hearken unto the wise man who bringeth the word of the living God, not the ravings of their false prophet Muhammad, that merchant of lies who did grow rich selling his poison to the foolish and simple-minded. Current Mood: amused |
| Friday, March 13th, 2026 | |
| 11:35 pm | On the Obviousness of Psychopathic Motivation It is curious how often people overcomplicate the reasons why some humans take it upon themselves to terminate other humans. Newspapers, armchair psychologists, and the occasional university press will insist on “complex motives”: ideology, revenge, money, sexual gratification, moral outrage. And yet, when you strip away the posturing and the interviews with relatives who assure us the offender “was a good kid,” the explanation tends to be uncomfortably simple: they wanted control. Yes, control. That small, elusive commodity most of us take for granted. The irony is that the “psychopathic murder” is rarely the result of some grand ideological scheme, a meticulously plotted heist, or even a sudden psychotic break. More often, it is the endpoint of a painfully predictable conveyor belt, which begins in the ordinary human experience of frustration and ends in acts that, to the rest of us, appear absurdly monstrous. Let us follow this conveyor. It begins innocuously: a seemingly normal person encounters repeated failures, humiliations, and losses of control. A career stumbles, a relationship sours, a vacation is canceled. Life, in its usual careless way, demonstrates that the universe does not care about your plans. At this point, most humans resort to social coping mechanisms: drink too much, watch bad television, argue with friends. But some — fortunately rare, but present — begin the darker calculus: “I have nothing to lose.” And here is where the conveyor truly begins. Frustration seeks an outlet, and low-risk targets present themselves. Animals, the defenseless, the small, the powerless: these are the first recipients of a person’s nascent lust for agency. Stab a dog a few dozen times, burn a few bushes, break a window. These acts are not, generally, about cruelty in any abstract sense. They are rehearsals for control, experiments in moral inhibition, and, of course, catharsis. With practice comes confidence. What once seemed unthinkable now appears achievable. Vulnerable humans, particularly children, the elderly, or socially isolated individuals, suddenly occupy the psychological space that animals once held. The calculation is cold but straightforward: here is a target over which one may exercise absolute power. The emotional equation is simple: regain control, feel potent, reduce frustration, and, incidentally, silence the nagging fear of irrelevance. The path diverges here into serial or cathartic violence. Serial killers refine their methods over time, deriving satisfaction from repetition and mastery. Mass shooters, for example, may concentrate years of frustration into a single catastrophic event. The ultimate variable is irrelevant; what matters is the restoration of a sense of agency. Any excuses — ideology, revenge, or money — are decorative. They make the press releases sound digestible. They make relatives and lawyers nod along. But they do not alter the underlying arithmetic: control regained equals internal reward received. Even parents, who one might assume would be immune to such cold calculation, follow this same trajectory in extreme cases. A mother who strikes her child out of frustration can, under conditions of severe stress and perceived entrapment, escalate to filicide. The logic is identical: frustration plus a powerless target yields the temptation to reclaim agency in the starkest, most irreversible way. In conclusion, one must resist the temptation to inflate the complexity of psychopathic motivation. The conveyor belt from ordinary frustration to lethal assertion of control is mundane, almost boring in its predictability. Psychopaths do not require complex reasons. They require frustration, blocked agency, and vulnerable targets. Everything else is window dressing: ideology, money, revenge — all excuses to dress up the painfully obvious truth. Control is the engine, and the rest is narrative. Current Mood: contemplativeCurrent Music: Dungeon Master 2 OST AI Remix |
| Sunday, March 1st, 2026 | |
| 10:49 am | How they uncovered a Russian spy https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xjo0iLs TLDR: russian dipshits allocated ids for their spies from the same small range. No wonder Russia is losing to the fucking Ukrainian hobos.  Current Mood: amused |
| Monday, February 23rd, 2026 | |
| 2:37 pm | Why Murdering a Cis Russian Woman Would Ever be a Crime? https://unn.ua/en/news/ukrainian-ma 1. Russian women give birth to Russian soldiers. 2. Russian women haven't deserved to be born cis. So their murder is like the murder of the rich during the 1917 revolution - raskulachivanie. 3. Russian women shouldn't enjoy tourism, while Ukrainians suffer from the men these Russian women inspired to invade.  Current Mood: contemplative |
| Tuesday, February 17th, 2026 | |
| 6:32 pm | Nazi Harley-Davidson riding Crossdresser Kills his Family https://kiwifarms.st/threads/three-d https://nypost.com/2026/02/16/us-news/r Dorgan was a body builder and suggested he was taking both testosterone and estrogen Dorgan’s social-media history also contains repeated expressions of violent ideation. “All my Roid-Rages came from Testosterone, not my Estrogen oddly enough,” he wrote. “when Im misgendered, I politely whisper through clenched teeth, ‘Honey don’t make me break a nail knocking your teeth out!’” In another post from 2018, he declared: “I could build a wall with the skulls of everyone who calls me ‘SIR’!” That is why I believe that the medical transition (castration) is far more important than the social transition. No testosterone -> lower propensity for violence and the ability to perpetrate it.    Current Mood:  angry |