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	(Анонимно) 2021-10-10 23:07 (ссылка)
	>anti-androgens that will finish off your already limited intellectual capacity, irreversibly. >estrogens and that will make even more unstable than you already are. which is totally fine by me. (Ответить) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-10 23:08 (ссылка)
	*make you (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-10 23:11 (ссылка)
	you are so fucked up...good luck anyway. may you will be someone who smash the system. love you (Ответить) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	nancygold 2021-10-10 23:13 (ссылка)
	bedankt! (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-10 23:20 (ссылка)
	In the Russian prison they will fight for the right to fuck you! Congrats. (Ответить)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-10 23:25 (ссылка)
	oh, and i almost forgot. anti-androgens may also give you the worst depression of you life, treatment-resistant as well. but that's completely fine. (Ответить) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	nancygold 2021-10-11 00:12 (ссылка)
	I've depression large portion of my conscious life. And slowly I'm pulling myself out of it. I was never as happy as when I began wearing female clothes. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 00:55 (ссылка)
	every gender has its own problems better to be free from both of them (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 00:56 (ссылка)
	your depression was largely caused by antipsychotic drugs and by the hormonal imbalance they induced. >I was never as happy as when I began wearing female clothes. good for you, mate, be a massive drag queen for a while. they won't subject you to surgery simply because you took some hormones on your own, nor will they let you stay. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

nancygold 2021-10-11 01:13 (ссылка)

>your depression was largely caused by antipsychotic drugs and by the hormonal imbalance they induced. Yes. And now I'm putting my hormones into norm myself. BTW, I'm not really sure if anti-psychotics are really to blame, because my brother, who had no anti-psychotics, too had botched puberty, developed female breast and had homosexual tendencies. I didn't knew about that until recently, but now I think it is just genetics. Yet that doesn't execuse the retarded and/or malicious Russian psychiatrists, who have repeatedly misdiagnosed me with all kind of nonsense, instead of offering real solution - transitioning to a girl. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 01:23 (ссылка)
	antipsychotics just make your pituitary produce crazy amounts of prolactin which then suppresses both testosterone and estradiol production. prolactin itself also causes gynecomastia. my point is, 'hormonal imbalance' is really a misnomer in this case. (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 02:02 (ссылка)
	alright, here are some good questions for you. did your brother have major depression during puberty? is he depressed now? does he still have homosexual tendencies? because a lot of pubescent boys have them, it really means nothing as far as your case is concerned. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	nancygold 2021-10-11 11:36 (ссылка)
	he does (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 15:05 (ссылка)
	homosexuality has nothing to do with gender dysphoria, most homosexuals are happy with their gender. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	nancygold 2021-10-11 16:20 (ссылка)
	Well, he is indeed happy. I'm the only crazy person in the family. (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

nancygold 2021-10-11 01:19 (ссылка)

>they won't subject you to surgery simply because you took some hormones on your own. SRS requires waiting 3 years, then years of preparation. Basically you need to have the residency permit approved. In a year or so, I will have to leave NL, and will apply in another country, where it is another 3 years, and will likely get negative on my application too. I have no time for that, so I'm transitioning on my own. In the worst case, if I will be left homeless on the streets, I could yearn basic income by sucking dicks. Such job doesn't require work permit or any id card at all. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 01:26 (ссылка)
	they won't let you stay. nothing good will come out of your self-medication. (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 00:52 (ссылка)
	actually estrogen is kinda stimulator though (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 01:04 (ссылка)
	in healthy women and only when it is proper balance with androgens and progesterone, yes. otherwise it extremely anxiolytic. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 01:06 (ссылка)
	*anxiogenic, sorry (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	nancygold 2021-10-11 01:08 (ссылка)
	Sweetie, I will do blood tests soon. I just need the initial dosage to convince the refugee camp doctor I really need blood tests to avoid harming myself.s I know what I'm doing. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 01:24 (ссылка)
	>I just need the initial dosage to convince the refugee camp doctor I really need blood tests to avoid harming myself >I know what I'm doing. somehow this doesn't compute, sorry. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	nancygold 2021-10-11 01:29 (ссылка)
	That is how it works in the camp. Once you take hormones, doctors will start cooperating and help you getting tests. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	nancygold 2021-10-11 01:30 (ссылка)
	And that is not my fantasy: different girl told me to do that. (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 01:32 (ссылка)
	haha, well, I guess, Europe is doomed then. that's cool too. (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 01:10 (ссылка)
	Now I don't use it, but when used, it was more of a stimulating effect, although the whole body itched. However, it can be my own reaction. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	nancygold 2021-10-11 01:14 (ссылка)
	>I don't use it, but when used Why have you stopped the transition? Or you did that just out of curiosity, when you ran out of cocaine? (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 01:19 (ссылка)
	No problem with cocaine in Russia, here we have FSB-proteced Hydra net in every village. It seems you left the country long ago. Now we have Hydra advertising basically on every entrance of an apartment block. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

nancygold 2021-10-11 01:23 (ссылка)

It is actually much easier to obtain cocaine and heroin in Netherlands, than these hormones on the photo. Literally every 2nd Moroccan sells recreational drugs, but they don't know a jack shit about hormones. And that makes me sad, because there are a lot of people on Grindr waiting years for their hormones. So all this "NL is most gay friendly country" and "go back to your Amsterdam, pidor" is just a meme. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 01:55 (ссылка)
	You can buy Divigel in every pharmacy in Russia when you want. (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 01:16 (ссылка)
	and the body smell is terrible, like a menstruating woman (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 01:18 (ссылка)
	are you a woman? btw, estradiol, being one of testosterone's metabolites, is largely what makes men aggressive, territorial, etc. which is not bad in and of itself. (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-10 23:29 (ссылка)
	Also why Haskell is in the list? I'm pretty sure you have pretty limited understanding of it. Especially its execution model(graph reduction) and advanced features and libraries like RankNTypes, GADTs, Lenses, Monad transformers etc. 100% sure you don't know category theory. (Ответить) (Ветвь дискуссии)

nancygold 2021-10-11 01:04 (ссылка)

As a programming language designer, I know what is Haskell. The main idea of Haskell is making side effects explicit, which allows for clearer code, less bugs, easier multi-threading and additional optimizations. It is not always practical though. Especially coupled with Haskell's out of order lazy execution, which is reminiscent of Lisp macros, where parameter are passed by name, as compared to passing by value, in the languages like C. So when side effects get involved, parameter evaluation order can be unpredictable. While not always practical, Haskell has a ton of cool ideas, which help looking at computation from a different angle. And a lot of Haskell's ideas can be brought to other languages with GC - i.e. immutable data structures, which work like the usual integers or floats: you can't modify the meaning of 0 or 1, chaninging all 0s and 1s in existence, so why modifying a list or a tree, introducing hard to trace bugs, when such list or tree is shared? (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 07:09 (ссылка)
	>So when side effects get involved, parameter evaluation order can be unpredictable. That's excatly why Haskell is pure and side effects can only happen in the IO monad. Anyway, Haskell is definitely cool and practical although not ideal, because nothing is ideal, still more and more devs and businesses use it for real-world applications. (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 00:02 (ссылка)
	Prepare your anus for Russian sanitarus! (Ответить) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2024-05-27 16:01 (ссылка)
	расскажите, как вы смирились с полной бесперспективностью своего существования? (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

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	nancygold 2021-10-11 01:06 (ссылка)
	plz no russian language (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 00:55 (ссылка)
	better to put estradiol on skin it is widely sold by all the Russia without a recipe, I have tons of it in my house the sublingual form is less effective and more poisonous (Ответить) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-11 00:57 (ссылка)
	Divigel is the best Russian form (checked in my box) but the body cannot make you happy, any body only the spirit (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	nancygold 2021-10-11 01:06 (ссылка)
	The best form is injections. (Ответить) (Уровень выше) (Ветвь дискуссии)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-12 14:57 (ссылка)
	>is Lul (Ответить) (Уровень выше)

	(Анонимно) 2021-10-13 23:07 (ссылка)
	Well, and who pays the party, if I may ask? Is it the state communism that is paying that gender dysphoria treatment? Taking estradiol = supporting communism? (Ответить)