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nancygold's LiveJournal:
| Wednesday, July 24th, 2024 | |
| 12:07 pm | At one point Dutch were the only europeans allowed to Japan https://www.artelino.com/articles/dutch Current Mood:  amused |
| Monday, April 1st, 2024 | |
| 5:27 pm | The Main Problem of het Nederlands  Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: Khruangbin - Full Performance (Live on KEXP) |
| Friday, January 6th, 2023 | |
| 5:05 pm | My Life as a Video Game I have lost the competition, due to the political nature of my submission, so no free web programming courses for me. Anyway, here is that game: https://codepen.io/NancyGold/full/NWBWZ Yeah, all the tags are as relevant as ever :D Surprisingly my blog needs just these 5 tags.  Current Mood:  accomplishedCurrent Music: Wolf and Raven - Ace Of Space |
| Monday, September 12th, 2022 | |
| 12:17 pm | Myrzin came to NL Another fake gay... or a real one?!! https://lj.rossia.org/users/paperda Hope I wont bump into this transphobic neo-nazi  Current Mood:  anxious |
| Saturday, June 4th, 2022 | |
| 8:08 pm |  Current Mood: cheerful |
| Wednesday, June 1st, 2022 | |
| 1:12 pm | New Diagnosis It doesn't confirm my Russian autism and schizotypal personality disorders, yet confirms gender dysphoria. Checkmate, trolls and bullies!!! I will never see your Russia ever again!!! Enjoy you North Korea yourself!!! Hope in a few years I will get to Thailand and Philippines ^__^ But I'm still sad about the few Russian transgirls I like. Hope they will get out.    Current Mood: cheerfulCurrent Music: Anachronox OST |
| Wednesday, May 18th, 2022 | |
| 9:06 pm | When I began transitioning So whatever people say, I was interested in transgenderism since around 2006: https://argonov.livejournal.com/1238.ht My nickname there is exanode, and I had female avatar back them. archive.org knows Shame I haven't transitioned back then. That would have solved all my issues. But I was completely isolated and in depression. Argonov after that went completely insane and released music about USSR 2.0 and a war with America. Should have too transitioned in the name of Queer Anarchism and Transhumanism. Otherwise it is impossible to build USSR 40k  Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: Purple Motion - Second Reality |
| 5:55 pm | Got move to the new camp I asked if they can move me with Antonina, but they decided to move me closer to psychiatric asylum and crematorium. I'm not joking, it is the next area down the road.  Current Mood: accomplishedCurrent Music: Daikatana - Modern Mystery |
| Thursday, May 12th, 2022 | |
| 8:21 pm | I’m Sorry for the Last Video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ysdajb4  Current Music: Leæther Strip - Worlock |
| Saturday, May 7th, 2022 | |
| 4:57 am | Meta-Meta Programming: Fixing the Bugs in Your Thinking Reddit banned me for the screenshoted post. So first the West tells me to join Russia. Then the West bans me when I agree to do that. What do the westerners even want from me? They don't want me in the west. They don't want me in the Russian army either. I'm sorry, but if you live in Russia, you have to defend Russia. And Russian people and culture too. Ukraine tries to genocide Russians and Russian culture. Which includes Lenin Komsomol central square. People say I should set immigration office door on fire, Pavlensky style. Or throw a egg at a Dutch politician. Except Dutch immigration service people are right. While I was wrong all this time. I believed that the West are the good guys. Liberals, for the world peace and accept everyone. But Russians were right. Westerners are the Nazis. Migration officials directly told me that Russians are right and I'm wrong. So I have to accept that. I'm crazy but not completely stupid. I can see my errors. I believed Ukrainians are fighting for freedom. But Ukrainians are just a bunch of unwelcoming Nazis. Ukrainian immigration service said I have no place in Ukraine. Despite my ancestors coming from Ukraine and me supporting Ukraine. So now I believe Putin that Ukraine actually murders the Donbass children. I'm a computer programmer. Sometimes I notice bugs in my software. I fix them. Sometimes entire design flaws need to be recognized. Same with my political views and hopes. The West shown that my views are flawed. I have fixed my worldview, just like I fix my programs. It was sad, because I had to admit I was wrong. That I haven't properly understood what is going on. I had to admit that I'm stupid and my thinking was flawed. But I had to come over myself and accept my mistakes. Same way I noticed that I have bugs with my emotions. And I began taking hormones to calm myself down. To remove the testosterone induced anger and hatred. Admission of errors is the first step to correct them. Unfortunately I have to forget the dream of becoming a girl. It is not that Putin hates transgenders. But the general Russian population is just not ready for that. If I want to live in Russia, I have to be in boymode. First Russia needs to liberate entire world. And only then we can discuss trans-humanism.   Current Mood:  sadCurrent Music: Scandroid - Purified |
| Wednesday, May 4th, 2022 | |
| 2:05 pm | |
| 7:22 am | Antonina has some really vicious haters Literally Veniamin type stalkers. They went to my youtube channel just to attack her, After they seen that photo of me with Babkina at a Dutch trans meeting. Why do Russians hate Antonina? She is not super successful to be jealous of. She is infantile, but I'm too, and many cis and trans girls in fact. She posted some mild russophobia, but never ever reached my levels. But I myself don't get such hatred. More like just direct threats of murder.  Current Music: Alan Menken - The Little Mermaid Soundtrack |
| Sunday, May 1st, 2022 | |
| 9:11 am | Trans Meet-up Two Russian trans girls Nancy and Antonina, under the Ukrainian command of Anna. Anna has PhD and did teaching at Kyiv university, before that war began.  Current Music: Irene Cara - What A Feeling |
| Tuesday, April 26th, 2022 | |
| 6:51 pm | |
| Tuesday, April 19th, 2022 | |
| 8:17 pm | HRT Meds Soon I will get sissy pills prescribed legally. My life has just became much much easier. Next I need a proper gender dysphoria diagnosis. It will cancel the Russian schizotypal disorder one. And I will use it to defend myself against Russia. To show incompetence and malice of Russian shrinks. I will also attach that Ukrainian diagnosis. It too contradicts the Russian one. Already past 22:00 here, and time for me to sleep. Good night, dear friends!  Current Mood: accomplishedCurrent Music: Polygon - One Day |
| Monday, April 18th, 2022 | |
| 7:04 pm | Russian Consulate in Netherlands Russian consulate refuses to review any requests in English and demands me to speak Russian, which I will never do. The fact I'm a citizen of Russia doesn't mean I'm expected to speak Russian.  Current Music: Electric Youth - The Life |
| Tuesday, April 5th, 2022 | |
| 2:37 pm | Upping the Hamster Game I fucking hate Ukraine getting attacked by Russia now. They engulfed the entire information space. If I do mass murder at GZA today, nobody will notice it and my effort will be in vain, because all news are preoccupied with Ukraine and Ukrainian refugees in Europe. Russia and Ukraine keep following me everywhere I go. :( now my bf found a Ukrainian trans girl, who is much cuter than me. I'm really jelly of her beauty, but she is absolutely patriotic. After reading my Reddit posts, she decided to return to Ukraine and enlist into the territorial defense (she was stuck in EU being on a tourist trip). Really crazy sister, and I don't know how to convince her to stay in NL. She has PhD and would be much better working in EU (super cute nerd girl in glasses, knows everything about HRT). Somehow my posts always have the reversed effect from my intent. I call trans girls to escape Ukraine, but they instead go there, feeling ashamed of being traitors. Returning to my struggle, GZA at the new AZC site is even less cooperative and refuses hormones and blood test like the GZA in Harderwijk. But the nurse here called police saying I'm threatening her and she doesn't feel safe. But Dutch cops don't really care about some trans girl posing danger for herself and the others (when she kills you, then you come report her). The nurse also tried to escalate my threats to her management, but they don't care either, or even want trans girls to bomb their offices. Do they really need a PR of a trans girl setting ablaze their offices? Then again, GZA approved HRT meds to almost all Ukrainian and Russian girl I know (even Tonya Babkina I heard got her pills instantly), so I'm some really special case for them and they apparently want to provoke me into mass murder. The nurse lady was somewhat nice and did everything in her power, so I told her to change the place of work as soon as possible. I think are far more evil people who actually deserve to die. Anyway, there is a single door to the GZA offices, and if I manage to block it, everyone inside will burn alive, like the fucking transphobic hamsters they are. You can report me to cops for the 9000th time, but Dutch cops just don't care, even if you show them bomb and guns, which you are about to use for a mass murder. Although they can indeed help me by referring me for an emergency psychiatric examination. TLDR: Ukrainians please stop the war, so I can proceed with the final chapter of my life. I need the calm information space so everyone will notice and I will push the transgender agenda awareness in the respect-pronouns-or-burn-alive way.  Current Music: Daemonia - Suspiria |
| Sunday, April 3rd, 2022 | |
| 7:48 am | Witchhunt Escalates  Current Music: Avicii - Broken Arrows |
| Saturday, April 2nd, 2022 | |
| 2:52 pm |  Current Music: Alan Menken - Little Shop Of Horrors |
| Thursday, March 31st, 2022 | |
| 6:16 pm | Today Dutch arrested me and accused of "Sedition". It is probably the result of me bitching for some time about NL government being Nazi with hormones prescription and the general Dutch mistreatment of trans girls. Now they believe I'm a danger to their Reich's national security. Yesterday another trans girl stayed with me. We practiced make-up and cuddled a bit. It was a somewhat late, so she stayed in my room for a sleepover (there is a free bed). Today. Early morning. Somebody knocks on the door. It is the police. I'm used to the morning police visits since living in Russia, but my sister was confused and scared sh1tless. At least Dutch cops don't beat you during arrest. As I understand Dutch security service really disliked my posts, calling Ukrainian transgenders, who are denied exit from Ukraine, to cooperate with the Russian military intelligence out of spite. But it seems Dutch generally dislike free speech. They also threatened with charging me with terrorism ("you want to bomb a school, admit it!!"). In the end people who told me that I wont find a country better than Ukraine were right. I think Dutch can also charge me with human trafficking. Interrogator explicitly asked me "what do you think about helping people?" And then about helping other refugees. Because I tried to help bringing two African trans girls to NL, and messaged a lot of groups about that, while advising the girls how to get into EU. But I don't care about Dutch laws, only about my sisters. So again here by definition I'm a danger to Dutch state security. Dunno why they let me out of jail for now. Super strong Russia vibes from my stay here. I spent 3 years in Ukraine and nobody touched me. Here in NL I got beaten, my laptop and phone were confiscated by cops, I was charged for that beauty salon, employees of which beaten me, and today they accuse me of sedition of all things! I'm thinking about using the pretext of NL persecuting me under a political article to apply in another country. That cancels the Dublin convention. I think Dutch are hinting that I should get out, and that the Dutch security service got angry that I reapplied. Maybe in Portugal they accept trans girls? And it is a warm country ^__^  Current Mood:  aggravated |
