История одного святого, или Что такое нирвана?
Чрезвычайно поучительная история о том что представляет собой состояние "духовного просветления" (из книги Оливера Сакса "Антрополог на Марсе"). Переводить, извините, некогда. Если кто-то возьмёт на себя труд - буду очень признателен.


"Greg F. grew up in the 1950s in a comfortable Queens household, an attractive and rather gifted boy who seemed destined, like his father, for a professional career-perhaps a career in songwriting, for which he showed a precocious talent. But he grew restive, started questioning things, as a teenager in the late sixties; started to hate the conventional life of his parents and neighbors and the cynical, bellicose administration of the country. His need to rebel, but equally to find an ideal and a guide, to find a leader, crystallized in the Summer of Love, in 1967. He would go to the Village and listen to Allen Ginsberg declaiming all night; he loved rock music, especially acid rock, and, above all, the Grateful Dead.

Increasingly he fell out with his parents and teachers; he was truculent with the one, secretive with the other. In 1968, a time when Timothy Leary was urging American youth to "tune in, turn on, and drop out," Greg grew his hair long and dropped out of school, where he had been a good student,- he left home and went to live in the Village, where he dropped acid and joined the East Village drug culture-searching, like others of his generation, for Utopia, for inner freedom, and for "higher consciousness."

But "turning on" did not satisfy Greg, who stood in need of a more codified doctrine and way of life. In 1969 he gravitated, as so many young acidheads did, to the Swami Bhaktivedanta and his International Society for Krishna Consciousness, on Second Avenue. And under his influence, Greg, like so many others, stopped taking acid, finding his religious exaltation a replacement for acid highs. ("The only radical remedy for dipsomania," William James once said, "is religiomania.") The philosophy, the fellowship, the chanting, the rituals, the austere and charismatic figure of the swami himself, came like a revelation to Greg, and he became, almost immediately, a passionate devotee and convert. Now there was a center, a focus, to his life. In those first exalted weeks of his conversion, he wandered around the East Village, dressed in saffron robes, chanting the Hare Krishna mantras, and early in 1970, took up residence in the main temple in Brooklyn. His parents objected at first, then went along with this. "Perhaps it will help him," his father said, philosophically. "Perhaps-who knows?-this is the path he needs to follow."

Greg's first year at the temple went well; he was obedient, ingenuous, devoted, and pious. He is a Holy One, said the swami, one of us. Early in 1971, now deeply committed, Greg was sent to the temple in New Orleans. His parents had seen him occasionally when he was in the Brooklyn temple, but now communication from him virtually ceased.

One problem arose in Greg's second year with the Krishnas-he complained that his vision was growing dim, but this was interpreted, by his swami and others, in a spiritual way: he was "an illuminate," they told him; it was the "inner light" growing. Greg had worried at first about his eyesight, but was reassured by the swami's spiritual explanation. His sight grew still dimmer, but he offered no further complaints. And indeed, he seemed to be becoming more spiritual by the day-an amazing new serenity had taken hold of him. He seemed to be becoming more spiritual by the day-an amazing new serenity had taken hold of him. He no longer showed his previous impatience or appetites, and he was sometimes found in a sort of daze, with a strange (some said "transcendental") smile on his face. It is beatitude, said his swami-he is becoming a saint. The temple felt he needed to be protected at this stage: he no longer went out or did anything unaccompanied, and contact with the outside world was strongly discouraged.

Although Greg's parents did not have any direct communication from him, they did get occasional reports from the temple-reports filled, increasingly, with accounts of his "spiritual progress," his "enlightenment," accounts at once so vague and so out of character with the Greg they knew that, by degrees, they became alarmed. Once they wrote directly to the swami and received a soothing, reassuring reply.

Three more years passed before Greg's parents decided they had to see for themselves. His father was by then in poor health and feared that if he waited longer he might never see his "lost" son again. On hearing this, the temple finally permitted a visit from Greg's parents. In 1975, then, not having seen him for four years, they visited their son in the temple in New Orleans.


When they did so, they were filled with horror: their lean, hairy son had become fat and hairless; he wore a continual "stupid" smile on his face (this at least was his father's word for it); he kept bursting into bits of song and verse and making "idiotic" comments, while showing little deep emotion of any kind ("like he was scooped out, hollow inside," his father said); he had lost interest in everything current; he was disoriented-and he was totally blind.

The temple, surprisingly, acceded to his leaving-perhaps even they felt now that his ascension had gone too far and had started to feel some disquiet about his state. Greg was admitted to the hospital, examined, and transferred to neurosurgery. Brain imaging had shown an enormous midline tumor, destroying the pituitary gland and the adjacent optic chiasm and tracts and extending on both sides into the frontal lobes. It also reached backward to the temporal lobes, and downward to the diencephalon, or forebrain. At surgery, the tumor was found to be benign, a meningioma-but it had swollen to the size of a small grapefruit or orange, and though the surgeons were able to remove it almost entirely, they could not undo the damage it had already done.

Greg was now not only blind, but gravely disabled neurologically and mentally-a disaster that could have been prevented entirely had his first complaints of dimming vision been heeded, and had medical sense, and even common sense, been allowed to judge his state. Since, tragically, no recovery could be expected, or very little, Greg was admitted to Williamsbridge, a hospital for the chronically sick, a twenty-five-year-old boy for whom active life had come to an end, and for whom the prognosis was considered hopeless."

Сколько я помню, толстый, безволосый и вечноулыбающийся - это классический образ Будды. Примерно вот такой:



Там дальше у Сакса красочный рассказ о вегетативном существовании "святого" в клинике для идиотов. Книга качабельна из мула. Кому интересно, могу выслать мылом.