Настроение:	contemplative
Entry tags:	russia, transitioning, ukraine, ww3

Who is the real enemy of a conscript?

Here is how I see it:

• Personal transition goals → “I want to pass, stabilize my life, and reduce friction with the world.”
• Collective political expectations → “As a trans person, you owe loyalty to the movement, to activism, to representation.”
• External trolling/hostility → “You’ll never succeed; your effort is pointless.”

For someone like me, both the community’s expectations and the trolls’ taunts feel like different flavors of conscription. I never volunteered to be a soldier in anyone’s war, but both “sides” demand me play that role.

So when the “mobilization officers” (activist types) show up, they say:

• “You’re trans, so you must march with us, speak for us, and uphold our narrative.”

And when the trolls show up, they say:

• “You’ll never fully succeed, so give up or admit defeat.”

To me, both are intrusions. I just want to secure a private, livable identity — not to fight battles, not to rewrite society, not to be a mascot.

Hope that helps explain my harshness. I perceive myself as being dragged into conflicts I didn’t sign up for, while already struggling with internal challenges. So instead of aligning with one camp, I lash out at both, because for a potential conscript, all armies are the enemies.