fake confidence if you must, but you will never be a woman

>True TS will never be a cheerful or happy, like the effeminate faggots.
>True TS will wear hoodie and will be super depressive and angsty.

Of course, because non dysphoric "TS" (effeminate gays) like you, and the ones you observed, distanced their desired ideal state from themselves with the whatever fucked up thought process they have, dichotomous thinking in your case. While effeminate gays are happy the way they are. Therefore being an effeminate gay is better for mental health and well being of effeminite gays like you, while dichotomous thinking makes one unhappy, jealous and so on.

>catty behavior
>hateful

I'm pretty sure you falsely generalize all TS with yourself and your prostitute friends, who, I'm pretty sure, aren't the most representative of the TS demographic.

>these disgusting mannerisms

They are disgusting because you aim towards the impossible. These are just their identity mannerisms.

As an ex-bearded bald man, your "catty" mannerisms, like the "Sweety" address, also pretty disgusting to everyone who isn't your fucking gay pervert client, and certainly don't represent modern cisgender femininity. I.e it's the same gay shit, only more distorted.

I'm not familiar with Babkin's story, but I'm pretty sure he didn't go around the internet saying that he transitioned because he wasn't able to reach the gigachad standard of masculinity.

Also Babkin's story isn't a very good example, because he killed himself. It could be because the transitioning didn't relieve his already severe mental health situation, because gender shit wasn't the source of his distress. So it could be because he transitioned by mistake for example, and just couldn't find the courage to tell others. The retained attraction to girls supports this partially.

He wasn't gay, but you were/are gay, placing you in a different category. He could also have been a dysphoric individual.

>Myself included.

I just don't believe you, considering all the bullcrap you utter about easily observable shit. Your world is constantly in the black and white mode. Why aren't observations of other TS also fucked up? It's unlikely they were spared of this. I don't believe other TS are this fucked up in terms of dichotomous thinking, because you have been an internet famous champion of it.

If he was socially pressured to transition due to being "terminally online", his unfortunate end isn't that surprising.

And it's not like I'm inventing effeminate gays transitioning by mistake and then detransitioning. These exist in copious amounts.

Well, I've also seen your videos, "Sweety" isn't the entirety of my observations. Your greetings for example.

>I use "sweetie" as an euphemism meaning "listen here dumbfuck"

Nah, you behaved similarly on reddit in text, definitely genuinely, before you were banned.

>Effeminate homos use it for its face value.

But you are an effeminate homo functionally, just in denial. And right now we could be observing another flip of opinion, when autist becomes a non-autist, and when sweetie becomes a euphemism. Whatever.

Your boobs are removable. You could be a happy effeminate gay guy.

>And I will piss all over it.

Why would you do that? You can point your PP like all the other PP owners.

>what is your end game?

No end game. I'm just exploring the inner world of effeminate gays with BPD.

But my penis is healthy for my gender/sex, and isn't a product of obesity / hormonal imbalance. I don't have any fucked up visions of myself not having my penis, kidney or adrenal glands. I'm not in need of any disabusal. So let's start with you.

>Just like you envision me without what is important to me.

"My gynecomastia is important to me".

>In my reality your penis is an unhealthy implement of pedophilia.

Nice hallucinations.

>And my reality is obviously more real than yours

That's incorrect. I've never been institutionalized. I'm obviously more sane than you.

So you confirm your "femininity/masculinity" views are based on your exclusive/sovereign/insane world perception, and not on any kind of existing culture, because nobody thinks that 50% of men are so unmanly they should become third gender / women.

The view that women in the workforce are there to "look pretty and smiling" is also pretty insane and incompatible with reality.

Again, until reality hits you.

Unfortunately the welfare systems dampen reality hitting processes.

>So the "reality" for me is very different than the reality for everyone else.

Nevertheless you like to make descriptive statements about our common reality, and pretend they aren't based on your vastly "different reality".

>I was taught that I'm not supposed to conform to social norms and expectations.

You taught that yourself. It's unlikely that anybody was telling you to be a crazy person.

>The way society treated me taught me.

So you were institutionalized for not conforming to social norms and expectations, and you thought "they want me to be a crazy person and double down on it". The fuck? How does one make such a fucked up inference?

Btw your choice of the caricature 19th century gender norms is in effect a form of ultra conformism to social norms and expectations.

>I was different since I was born.

"I was different since I was born therefore I should be even more different, it will probably make me happy"

What?

>you're welcome to provide me with a job.

But you insist on not qualifying for any jobs by serially disrupting your language education. You also probably don't learn Dutch for backup purposes by yourself, through duolingo and what not.

And? Did you file a complaint like you usually do? Sounds like BS. Both Muslims and (non-insane) transgenders are sacred cows in the west.

In both first and second time you were expelled for inappropriate behavior from your side: (a) dressing slutty in public setting (b) bringing controversial inappropriate subjects up. I don't see how (a) and (b) in any way "showed it" to the Muslims. Both were done buy you consciously. You aren't a complete retard to not expect these outcomes.

If you had the case you could have used trantifa lawyers to sue them, but it's impossible because like in the case with the salon you likely weren't an innocent victim, but the one who provoked shit left and right.

Also it's the first time any mention of complaints appears. It wasn't the story. Earlier you only complained about them stifling your expression as a slutty "woman" or as truthsayer about honor killings.

Sounds like you have been working on archetypes for some kind of a game

And the argument why you aren't an effeminate gay is basically "effeminate gays don't try to be women, but trans do try, and because of that behave differently" Well no shit. Of course they behave differently. But trying to be a woman while being non-dysphoric gay man sounds like a delusion.